I dnt really know what to say journal, I was fibe minuites late to class today but truss understood. He knows my record. I told him a neded a few because of what I felt. I didn't really know I could feel it again. I thought it ended sometime ago. I walked to see her. I startled her when I asked her a qquestion. She looks amazing today. White suits her well. That white kid use to ask, if you were the type to snap and come in with a gun would you soot me? I always said no but that answer changed. I was so like mad at myself when I got to class. Wanna know something? The reason why I don't look back anyone when I walk is because im afriad that I'll look back and you won't be there. Now you got alittle inside my head. Im starting to feel better now with memories. If anytime came where you didn't want them I'd take them. Every single detail. But what would I do with them? I need to stop living in the past and thing people or just something to make me happyer in my future. But I only where I can find a goldmineof happyness.she's about five feet tall. Won't grow an inch more either. Cute huh?I just don't want to feel like I've made the wrong choice on friday journal, blog thing, whatver. Like when I go to the mall I feel like I should be somewhere else. Maybe with her. I just need to find somewhere I belong, like chester and mike. Linkin park. Im lame. I wanna see her. Well I do have a picture. That should be good for now. Cause I doubt I'll see her going to math. I hate to pick which hallway I think she might go but that's 50 50 and im not so good with luck. Well guess what pal?? Smacks himself. I was wrong. I did win with lady luck today.