Its like im looking for signal out here =/
but like i feel like we have eachother in mind
at least, a warm feeling. wonder if she feels it too

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<3 pittsburgh steelers <3

i made a bet with mother,
i said she's gonna blow up on the
18th or 19th and if so she owes me ten
bucks and she said if its after the 20th that i owe
her ten bucks =) theres this one four lettered word
repeating in my mind and man it isnt fair. maybe it isnt
the word your thinking of. oh and trheres no 'L' in it

cinci is playing the raven's little one,
and they're holding em up. we need the ravens to lose so if we
beat the patroits we'd be two games ahead of them. following me love?
babye...

I now understand edward, it isn't the real thing, not nearly as tastey but hey it works, for now. When I need a little jolt of "happyness" I listen to last night by diddy. I was singing it and then it got louder and louder till I was like screaming it. Maybe I got too into the lyrics =). Took it too personaly. I so didn't spell that word right. Fact: when I "dance" its some dorky looking shit =p kays well its 12:05 and I haven't talked to her in a day. see her all the time but the tou.... um I guess this is goodbye. Over and out

kitten, look outside, snow...

this tune isnt even 120 seconds but it makes me happy

Did you know you have a special way of turning around my terrible days?
You make all the bad things go away
the second that you say hello.

It's the way that you talk, that you laugh, that you smile.
If beauty was inches you'd go on for miles.
It's the way that you make everything seem worth while
the second that you say hello.

It's the way every love song reminds me of you.
Along with the stars and the sunset here too.
It's the way that you make the sky seem more blue
the second that you say hello.

So if love is a drug then i guess i'm addicted.
All i want is to have yours.
It's making my heart sick.
Goodbye is what broke it and you were what fixed it
the second that you said hello.

watching car auctions with mi dad,
this is awesome, just looking at cars that
are in our dreams, muscle caRS, i guess its a guy thing.
lol as lame as this is it makes me happy, im simple. <3

What I really meant ta say is that im sorry for the way that I am, I never meant ta be so cold, never meant ta be so cold. Screammm that shit! Scream it, I like itwhen you scream. <3 ily you all. I had an other amazinnggg mood swing. And thanks for keeping me warm during my nap. Knew you could never forget about me. =D ughhhhh this feeling, now can I be jane from xmenn and explode! <3 amgel face outttt. Oh and tell me why there's like four cars in front of my crib. The skanks across the street always have parties. Any whoo this time 4real im outty <3333

Silly boy, I almost lost sight of the picture. Never again, its 4:38. Goal is to wake up at around 7:13. *smiles* babye

Kays im on the last nightmare. But it isn't one of the first five. Wes craven's new nightmare. I wish there were like five more. Nightmare on elm five is my favorite. Loved it when he was playing that video game. Wekk gotta watch this. Later

keep singing that shit scott,
can you take me higher?

I need to get out more.
I honestly think im loosing it here. Closed in my room. Im my own worst enemy. Im the one that stops myself from doing what I want to do, im the one that stops me from doing things that'll make me happy, smile. I don't know what to do, what to think. Im so confused. So lost. Hello miss? Could you show me which way is up? Which is down? Cause its all the same to be now. Do I still chase that person up the neverending spiral staircase? Will I ever even catch her? Maybe she's running besides me and that's why I haven't scene her back in a while. Maybe I need to widen my vision. You there, toss me a knife. No, that's not what I ment. Kays easy bryan, happy thoughts, I need to shower first. That's the first step. Okay gotcha. Well its 12:07. And im sick of aim.

"People are different, you react one way, she an other".
Kays to drown out silly thoughts im singing. 10:53 now. I tryed calling joey but no luck..... oh yeah he's at his dad's. Darn. Botle's empty and cold, just like I've been when I heard you died alone. Lyrics to the song im listening to. Where do I go? Mr. Trian ticket seller person, gimme a ticket to anywhere please. And don't be cheap a few states.... wait hold up, a few dozen states away would be nice. Follow me? The sun just went behind a cloud. Kays and now its out again. Mother is like or seems 100% okay. The sun went away again. This is okay? Am I? Wanna know something strange and funny? Jen has a window in her closet. Isn't that odd? Did I get a laugh out of you? Maybe? Maybe a chuckle? A giigle? Kays well at least I tryed. Sorta..... im lame. But amazing. I can hear that chiansaw again. That's what woke me up at least. I had the stangest dream. I like kissed alice? In my mind alice is like you, in the book it said she's 4'10 and really small. Besides the spikey shortish hair she's you. At least to me. Jen's playing love story my taylor swift. Mother and jen are taking about a broken nail. Hahaha girls.... with the way gas prices are now, I'd bring the 2nd lambo on my first shelf to live. If I could. Kays now the sun came back out. But went away again..... that was fast. Rose in the movie had soo much like white make up on because I saw a fan with a picture on the set of twilight and she has a good tan on her lol. Its almost wish time. I really wasn't expecting a phone call last night. Nope I didn't. I hear that song play. Its the only one I can't force myself to listen to. I call it your song. Where'd ya go. Well I think I might have a bowl of cereal or something. Oh and the sun just came out. Later

For a guy that went to bed at around three, 10:16 isn't too bad. Well compared to sav it isn't. My face has cleared up nicely. Its just annoying ta put all that stuff on. I have wild sexx hair. Random but I wore my mustang belt for the first time in like three weeks. I woulda said a month but I don't think its been that long? Maybe it hasn't even been three weeks. My mind is a little bit better now. Ugh I need ta get the phone out of mi room.its annoying. Plans for today? Um same as yesterday. Nothing. Just readinging, and comics. Ohh yeahh baby im so living the life. Just like Mr.Ryan. Living the life by cllesting post cards. Remember? I think jen had that beeping thing from olive garden and couldn't make it shut up. Or maybe that was a different time. But I do know that was the time you nearly walked out with a glass cup =p I was like "umm babe?....." your a cutie. Kays well now im in jen's room. Hr hair is sooo curly. She got that from my dad's side. Father has long red curly hair in the 70's. No lie. Come the day you come to mexico with us you'll see. I like jen's room. I like the huge white boards. And all the room. I think I have enough crap ta make this room look smaller =). Ouch, my left elbow cracked. Amy just signed on. At 10:40. Jen's making her hair straight. Read my mind? I make it all too easy. Angel boy outt

Talking to you made things so much better, always did. Forever will. I can't sleep, fact: I sleep with two pillows now. One for me and one for you. =X

I can't sleep, I just can't fall love =/. Know what I can almost hear you telling me? "It's because you haven't really tryed honey, now get under the covers and try for me" will do love, will do, will... zzzzzzzzz <3

i wont ever completely go away, i'll always be that guy

my mind, my mind, my mind,
take it away, shut it off, you
want it? take it. im sure modern day
doctors can rig the wires to work on heart
alone. its all on my mind. easy bryan, calm
down. hold me, leave me alone. love me, hate me.
wanna call my buffs? think you can pick the right
ones? this sint easy now listen.

see man, she's having a blast.
why cant i do that? umm well as
i said before when your grandfather
dies thats a wrap on the rest of the day.
okay fine but i cant use that reason tomorrow.
wait how will i know i'll even wake? *slaps himself*
you cant talk like that or even think like that. got that?
mr. vann says im hard on myself but i dont know man. but
shut up and sing. no no no, i didnt mean to, dont cry man.
its alright. no whining to joey either man. this has to be ours.
mine. i sound crazy but heres a day in my mind. but if i keep this
mine wont i go boom? pop? well maybe if i dont keep it all in one bottle.
if i pack it into tons of bottles and throw em overboard. like secrets.
never thought of it that way. my hair is getting longish. =) and ughh =/.
i can see the stupid pocket knife on my bed. i found it under my bed. i use to keep
a pretty sharp knife under my bed but she took it away. what am i? what makes me, me? comics, joey, her, being mexican, speed and um well im not sure. im an odd kid. no one is 100% like me. and maybe thats a good thing. it is. ughhhh. i swear to god bryan. i wish i was jane from xmen and just float off the groud and burst. but that wouldnt help. im ust typing to type now. the only car with its door open is the purple lambo. kays well it goes, lambo, lambo, shelby, shelby. thats row one. row two is viper, corvette, cobra r, and lambo. row three is GTO, corvette, corvette and cobra. the stupid phone wont stop ringing. maybe im not an angel. just human. no to someone im perfect, someday again i'll click to someone like a puzzle piece. i wish i could move things with my mind like syler. i wish i could have that emo kid's powers and blow up my door but then freeze time like hiro to see the pieces. not thatd be cool huh? im trying to burie the fact that im an asshole. ughhh! no im not. im just me okay? im learning what it means to stand alone. i can, it isnt fun and its long but thats because i make it that. if i really wanted i can make these fucking days wizzz by and i can have a joker smile on this face always. i wish i could use a gun that'd shatter my mind. so it wont be whole and i can pick with state of mind im in. because me mood is like based on a wheel. like one on a game show. how knows where it'll land. but sometimes it depends on the music around me. but then why do i listen to this crap? i think its so meaningful and beautiful but idk. why cant i give happy music a try. know what? i will! hold up. kays im listening to "im blue" you know, that jumpy tune from the 90's. its 7:30. i need to shave my chin. theres a black braclet thats hard to move on my wrist, its been on there for awhile. fuck this song. to the veronias i go. i put on the song i jamed to. untouched.

" You can lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)"

kays lets break this down. and i dont mean dance by that lol.
anyways. i think the fist part means sexx and the thrid reminds me. i dont think
i make much sense tto her. maybe to anyone. or maybe you do get me. maybe im a bitch who can live without her. that still holds on like nothing has changed. maybe i do it because im not strong enough. maybe ive never fallen for someone like this before. maybe my greatest regret was being so stupid. for not looking things over before i broke things apart. but maybe i dint break her heart. maybe thats why i can still make her smile? girls are complicated. kiss them and they might love you, they might kick you in the nuts, push you over and spit on your face, or you might just get lucky, who knows, you know how the whole high school thing works. you have no clue. but i know if im alone and i get a gun and aim it at my foot and pull the trigger that it'll hurt. and bleed and put a hole in my foot. but if your with a girl the gen could jam before you shoot and some dumbass next to you could be like what the fuck? it was working just a second ago and put it to there face and pull the trigger and BAMMM! there goes your pal johnny. its strange. girls are amazing. cant live with em, cant live without em. hahahaha sike. im the kinda guy thats owned. that wants to be with someone. i wont let myself "have fun" with other people because i know the gulit would eat away at me, from the inside out, feeding on me like a disease. and i wouldnt be able to sleep. not one bit. i know what that feels like. if you can fight getting to that point children, do it, fight. dont let yourself loose sleep over it. so dont chase what you think you can handle because you like be able to handle it or sometimes you wont be so lucky. i love you. right now my mind is in fragments, like shattered glass. but this is my own personal rebuild. like the legos. your doing okay. and thats great. wanna know something that i once cried msyelf to sleep over? its stupid but i told myself that i wish i were still the reason behind you smile. maybe i am. lets say i am, whoa..... i smiled. but i dont think thats being realistic. there will be tonnns of things that'll make you smile and i shouldnt care what those things are as long as your smiling. today really dosent feel like a friday night. i miss like im working on a piece for a news paper. all thats ever been wrong with me is all in my mind. and it can be changed, i can be a so much happyer person. but do i deserve it? youd tell me yes. or maybe not, i wont put words into your mouth, maybe like i did before. youcan lead a horse to water but cant make it drink. thats one stobborn old horse huh? drink goddamnit! kick the horse in the tush. maybe then it'll drink. push me. im the stobborn old horse. i love you. and im sorry. please forgive me for what i do, for i know not what i do. joey with amy, cat with matt. me with me. angel with angel. ugh, im gettikng sickkk of this song. gotta change it. gimme a second. im listening to a song called gallery, my mario vasquez. its amazing. listening to it in spanish. adore me? with love i can be like ironman *gigles* lol im a dork, but i can, like love to me is like the cube that powers his suit. but i am loved. adored. just wait it out silly. i will. as lame as this might sound to some i'd wait forever for her. she's worth it. and please fint say your not. to me you are. well i think ive made this long enough. im outty or not, im back for more fun. its 8:08 now. i can almost hear her laughing, almost see the huge smile on her face. they're having fun. i am too, in a way. lets my mind loose. may i just shut up and sleep? wanna? sleep? keep me safe from freddy, jason, chucky, pennywise, candyman, leatherface, micheal. i need ta lay off the horror movies. my mind is out of crontrol. like gasoline in a diseal engine. it wont stop. not even if you take the key out. not even if i sleep noe i cant escape my thoughts. i think too much. but not thinking enough can also be bad. makes a person implusive no? there for dangerous. but only to himself? no cause if he does something stupid that he wont be coming back from it'll efrect his family and friends and so on. like the foodweb kinda. right? just nod and pretend your still reading this? kiss me to make me shut up? a kiss.... i havent had one for a while. why am i crying now? what gives? oh, its the song. its coming clean by chase coy. my mind. repeating good times. and not the tv show on tv land. of her and me. the smiles, the laughs, six flags, projekt rev, pool with lindsey, roy, jen, and mikey and his little friend. my teasured memories. you cant have em! mine! you can take anything else tho, wait! i didnt mean that! the comics are off limits buddy!!! GRRRR, touch em and imma have ta put mi dukes upy! =D im a dork. love me for it? i knoww you do, its okay baby. i remember the last time i was called baby. when i walked away from the group and went to the stair well. i could see eveyone that passes behind my back by the glass. thats how i knew when you were there. you called me baby. read my mind? can you the that angel that comes up to me now and says "honey, and places her hands over my eyes, shuting my eye lids softy and saying sleep now." and some how being able to put me to sleep by just saying it? and then say thats my boy and maybe kiss my forehead like i see it in my head. my mind. my ultimate escape. i love you.

way ta be an asshole jerk! =(

Laughter really does help,
i watched jackass 2.5 on some website
that my math helper told me. he also said the
girl "im always with" and i look cute together.
i sent you think in a text days ago. i havnt been
able ta catch you online. im singing along to a new tune
i found. called reason ta cry. its has a pretty upbeat thing to
it, dispite the title of it. mother is going better. she heal fast?
sing with me? im sitting on my bed again. i dont know why but its like
im mad at jess for that she had,you know. idk.i think its so wrong. whoa
this song is great too *smiles* wow. the tangled webs they weave. i wont say a
word but gosh. thats terrible. i wouldnt be able ta look at her straight. but it isnt
my bee's wax. and its safe with me. well anyways im listening to pac and just thinking i guess. the big comicbox looks almossttt halfway full. found an other amazing song. i have a feeling i wont be talking to ou today =/, later

Maybe if i press f5 enough times
i'll see change

i didnt know him well, only lived
with hm for a week years ago. im better
now, it was just hard seeing mother like that.
shes a tiny bit better. i think think she was more tears
to shed. i wanna tell you what happened in the comic but id want
you to read it yourself. we can cheak if you have the whole series.
i have the cheaklist. i think your busy? im awfuly bored. amy and joey
have plans today thats good. i keep looking for the blue light on the brick.
no luck tho. i think my face is clearing up with that stuff i use. i can now
hear mother's voice through the wall. i think what sucks most about her father's passing is that she wont be able ta fly out to his funeral. cause of the little guy.
a few days ago other was sleeping and i went into her room and laid on top of the covers and i thought. whoaa theres three people here on this bed.from the tin bit of light entering my room is looks like sunset. fact: i never open up the blinds in my room. ever. i wonder whats gong through her mind. wonder where she is. wonder what she sees and hears. i see my nightstand, comicbox, cellphone, and m pillow, random thought. when i said i was the warmest ive ever been in my bed, i told myself it was beause she was with my in spirt. wells imma go see if jen wants to watch a movie or something? idks, angel boy over and out

Don't worry about the last comic in the batman rip series catalina. I got it today.
*sigh* I hope your smiling

I don't really know what to say? But my grandfather died. Mother's father. Mother is a mess right now, crying and crying, she won't even let us see her face. ='(

I guess its black friday now blog, the malls will be packed and everyone is gonna get christmas gifts. I had a tough night and my throat hurts =/. Everyone is awake but jen but im sure you coulda guessed that. The eagels won last night 48 to 20. I was surprised. Listening to the goo goo dolls. Now seether. Well imma go get ready for whatever father didn't plan. We just kinda pick out randomly what we do with him. Never a plan, ever. Later

Who am I =]

Holy crap! Teehee I thought that was so dorky and cute of him. Whoa am I lisetning to myself? I sound mad gayyy. Well ummm guess what im making now? Mac and cheese lol, want some? Me making it meself. I say me a lot. Kays well um gotta go tend it, later folks

Happy turkey day?
Mother never made a turkey ever thos. I guess its because we're mexican? lol well when it was about two I was like "mami! Where's the stuffing, turkey, mashed potatoes and mac and mac cheese?" she told me that that's for americans. Lol i m dead tired of eating me kinda food. Bring on the chinese food and ittalin and um that stuff. I so spelled that wrong. I can picture it now, she has elsie, and um dad's mom and dad and mum I guess people from the pond and stuff? Idk maybe? And she looks amazing. That she always looks. Im sitting on my bed listening to tokio hotel. Listening ta frankie j and baby bash, suga suga. I look around at my room, my big comicbook box to my left, the scarface poster, my nightstand, that holds my legos, my braclets, two lamps, the big comicbooks and gumballs and books and um steelers monopoly full of stuffs. And to my right is my cars, a steelers hat (that so dosent fit my head) my pirates hat, a bradsaw helment, a fotball and bullets, thumbtacks, and my board, never changed. With my necklaces go when they aret being worn, a notw with gir, the flower from 8th grade, comicbook stores's cards. Robin and batman logos. Superman, batman and a marvel one..... (I got it from my venom shirt, that I lost like a longgg time ago) I think I last wore it when we shot those huge rubber bands at ty. Member? And you put two 7 stickers on it. My converse firsr has the number 77. Oh and in front of me is a chair, my dark knight poster, a smaller comicbook box. I can see my superman and one of my baman boxers and my xbox ones. My big batman doll thay lindsey won me last summer at six flags, I can see breaking dawn. (Wish is sittin on my nightmare on elm collection, and season one and two of heroes and daredevil and seasure four of the cartoon batman. And um that's my room I guess. She knows it well. Only thing that's changed is that there's more in it. Ouch, I just cracked my right elbow. Im saying like everything that's in my mind. Well holding back on this one part. Im sure you can guess. Im just trying to keep the happy thoughts in my mind. The loneliness and the pain is sometimes easier to ignor if I just pretend its not even there. Im okay I guess right now. I can picture her siling right now. I think she's happy being around the family and family friends that are most likely around her. Am I going crazy? I smell something burning?. Oh I forgot my new jersey in father's car. Its white. Mi tio got it for me. He said he forgot I liked black so much but its fine.crap! Phones gonna die, here always, bryan

Morning blog,
I feel asleep with the music
On again but this time no dream. I like creed a lot, like the sound of scoot's voice. I hear he's a butt tho, like johnny from the goo goo dolls. I woke up late today, like 8:20. That's like crazy for me cause I wake at five or six eachday. And I even went to bed early too..... strange huh? The last night I looked at my phone I thiink it said 10:11. Yesterday was a strange day indeed. I ate lunch, was happy. Oh and I went ta barts and and walked around with my joey. It was sorta cool when we got back to his place because joe was stuck on a part in fall out three and brandon and lia and I just sat on his bed watching him and idk it was nice. Untill the last moments that I was there, the whole um yea. I wonder if she ever has those. Well jen has a half day today and idk why but I think cat does too? She didn't say anything about it, just guessing. A picture just ran through my mind. Your hands *smiles* well um I think imma get all clean and pretty and what not. Angel boy outt

Todays I was happy =)
I even ate lunch! It was good too. When I tie the knot imma have my wife take my plastic and tell get to only gimme like 30 or toppsssss 45 to spent at a comicbook store. Wells if im still into that sorta thing at that age. Cause I don't think id wanna spent as much as I did today. Hiro was right, wensday is new comics day. Bruce is gonna die? Please let him live. Kill em next wensday but just not tomorrow. Wanna know the highlight of my day? It was before she parted to go to history I believe. It would sorta sounds strange so if you wanna know ask me. Tomorrow I see jen again, I wonder how that'll go. I had a moment of like spazing to hold her today but I controlled myself. Wasn't easy *sigh* kay imma grownnn ass man now right?
Mama *hugs you so close, not too tight but just to feel that nice feeling of having no space between us* read my mind? Im bundled up in my blanket, wanna crash? Night love

Factt: i rockked out in the shower to this song =D

i love you baby! =D i think this is the best mood swing ive ever had <3

hey blog,
i dont even remember
posting something yesterday.
i dont wanna sleep, freddy'll get
me =p. wells thats not the reason,
my neck hurts everytime i do. wanna know something?
i sat there and watched her bus ;eave untill it was out of sight.
maybe i sat there for more, who knows. the wind wasnt as cold.
sorta felt nice. im surprised i havent gotten sick. just an other month
and then screaming and loads of love. come on bryan, get a grip,
man up, i never have to carry more than i can hold. may i drop somethings
and run? breath? phase like wolfboy? kays im alright now, and in a few
minuites i might mean it. but darling, look at me, dont take my word for it.
i want to sleep, but i think i'll watch the last episode of heroes to have it
fresh on my mind, fact: i watched it twice since it aired.

Morning =D
know what today is people?
wells today is myy birthday!!!!
i got ccd today tho, imma tell our
teacher to nott make me read today as
a "gift" mother gave me a different pillow
to sleep with but the bump on my neck is still
there and its sore. she stayed up to wish me happy
birthday =} well imma hop in the shower, angel boy
over and outtt

=D my nightmare collection came in today!
i liked today varty much toos

i can breath now.
blog? bonesteel screwed up
my peice that i worked on for
like a month and ahalf. its sucks.
gotta start from new. he calls you my
girlfriend. sorry cat but i didnt correct him.
he's in your gym class, i think imma grab a bite ta eat, later dear

<3

whoa. *smiles so big)

This right here is a REAL picture folks =D
no editing, so none of your fancy photoshop stuff,
nope none of that. obama keeps it real babyy =D

Morning,
Wanna know something that's been like hurting these past two nights? Me neck. Michelle says its because I don't have enough support in my pillow. But I never had my neck hurt from it. Ever. Wanna know something else? Jen dosent sleep with a pillow and I don't think she's ever said a word on her neck hurting. Wells I guess I gotta get dressed and do the whole nine yards. *croses fingers* over and out

The game has been a vary long one. No touchdown just a safety and two feildgoals. For a second I tought I said goat at the end. I just wanna sleep. Its 6:57. I was only on aim like in the early morning. All we ned is a kick to win. Please ben? Just lead us there and you jeff make my week. So I can give troy a highfive tomorow. Kahtia is at the webster I told her that next time we need to go well to the next show.hector has a game soon so um he has to go. Speaking of hectors mother called her one. I was like ummmm why? Mi tia knows. *opens arms* anyone wanna take a nap with me? Well just afew more left and then home. Nighty night and im out

deal loves,
im lookin good,
feelin good and yeahh =D
i drove to bloomfeild with father and
back. ya boy got skills behind the wheel.
wells um i hope she enjoyed herself and today
so far is a way etter day than yesterday. gosh lets
not even get into that. 180' turn much tho? =) all smiles.
ravens game is on, gotta run. angel boy over and out <333

Blog? Its so early. But im up.
The highlight of my day yesterday I guess was watching the mummy returns.
(For the 282y6278902567th time) my neck killlss right now. Wanna know something? Idk where my pillow case went go my green shirt with the big bird is on it. Once again I like crashed last night. I can hardly see straight tight now. I hope she had a good night. With the sleepover. I would take a shower now but sam's slept over last night and I think ird wake sam. Not jen cause jen can sleep through like hell.my brother got 500 bucks worth of stufff yesterday. Like the tank was full. Imma say that again... the tank was full! Well of alota things but I like never even thought it could be full. My birthday is on a sunday I guess. A week from now. And then we get awhile off for thanksgiving. Id text someone but I know no one is up at this time on a sunday. Her mate is a vary strange boy. The sports people all picked us to beat the chargers today. Cause they don't cover your wr's and te's. So IF ben does play he could have a big day. Idks I still want byron to play tho. Do you remember the eagels game? We were in the living room. You remember a lot. I wish the auto correct would would when im on the web with my phone. Guess only in emails and texts it works. That's why I mispell a lot here. Well I guess imma read some comics? I need to finish your book, its been wayyyyy too long. Maybe by new years I can finish all of em. New years, I memeber that day. Anywho yeah imma go. over and out

dear edward, my bella has problems
not tripping over her feet but what
can i say? shes well mine...

mood change much?
or maybe cause im having my 2nd fav fruit. the
small oranges. trangerlies? i so cant spell. i think
mother is trowing me a surorise party like jen's. =)
well later ily, i say that too too much

blog? i talked to my gc for well ov er an hour and ahalf,
today wasnt my day. had my first real breakdown in the,
wait it dosent matter. cant bitch to anyone. mine i guess?
ily

An omen maybe?
my bandage fell off
me arm this morning =/.
hahaha i hope its some
sort of sign for someing
good

great ending <3

You and I share the same reflection
why dont you see that we cannot survive in this condition
If you're cut, I'll bleed
So go on carve into your heart, I could use a new scar or a brand new start
Slowly severing the only memories that bind us as one.

I just dont know
How to win with you
And I cant let go, part of me is you.

We have lost all communication when words fall on deaf ears
I'm starting to feel a transformation.
How did I get here?
I dont recognize my own reflection its a ghost of what once was
Gone from relative to stranger, separating body from mind

And so it rained tonight.
Ummm nice change of song.... it went from crush by that david that lost in american idol from luda "I wanna lick you from your head to your toes" yeahs so anyways if there was ever a time where you had to come here to our house I'd tell you something no one outside jen and I know. Its really cool. Steelers history.all people should know it. I'd tell ya but I don't think you'd ever have to use it. Well the rain is cold and mother and I are gonna go shopping. I hope they say yes for tomorrow, kays well maybe I should stop blogging? Idks. Over and out? *looks back*

honey! it was all a dream...
it wqas crazy tho, i must have let my phone on
the music player mode while i slpet and with the change
of songs my dream changed to that mood. with sweetest girl you
were so popular and like you had a bf that all you asked about was
what he got you. like jewlery and cloths and when i said your name to
talk to you. you said "you know you cant do this, we're are in public you know"
and i then you asked this this ring looked nice on you, i said lovely and you said
really? i dont think so. and you said you really had to go in a snobby tone and said
if its popularity that i wanted that maybe you'd say my name if i did your history
hw fot you. then we parted ways. you walked like with a whole bunch of boys that could fitedward cullen's bio. well thats whe nthe song changed and echo played. i stood there and said over in my mind, whatever happened to you? you use to the the
sweetest girl and now all you care about is money and your looks. what happened to the doek i use to read comics with and blow all our nickles and dimes on them, or maybe thats just me but still... thats besides the point =) ily. i said if only you could here the echo in my mind, thats when i saided saying ily, catalina. and then its like you heard me and something shattered in your mind and you ran all the way back to me and like hit me to hard and i fell down and you were on top of me. kissing me and saying you were sorry. yhats when the song changed to smother me. and i was calling you baby all the time and i just held you, then suddenly the floor disappered beneth us and we were falling through well nothing, but after awhile i saw the stars, we were falling and falling faster. i held you. protected you. here in my arms. then it happened again. isnt someone missing played and i woke up like in qa cabin type thing on a mountian. with what it looked like a map. like i was trying to figure out where you went. guess you moved suddenly, like the groud we laid on and then got married so your last name changed whhich made it harder and then i lost all contacts with the mckays. i was trying to find the family you stayed with in germany with but it had been about 30 years. =/ and i sand it. isnt someone missing? isnt someone missing me? i wondered if you misses me. all i had then were maps and deadlines of trails i thought you took. i had the 8th grade year book and all our notes. guess i was never really abale to let go. not een 30 years after sight. then i miss you played. i was in germany now, i found the location where you stayed that summer, it was a rainly night. how woulda guessed huh? wello anywas i knocked on the door and told her my name, and that i was sorry for disturing the woman at her house. but then i got to the point, i told her why i was there, at their home, hell even in german;y. the lady said bless your soul and let me in for a cup of tea. but soon she told me, im sorry to tell you this sonny but that family fled after the war and she didnt hear good news about it. she was gonna tell me but i told her to hold her toung. rude huh? and so then i left. left the house. an other dead end. thats when wake up played. all i heard was "wake up, wake up, honey wake up!" thats when you threw some watter on me but i woke up to you and held you do cold. i said i spend the last 3p years looking for you! do you have any idea what hell i had to go through? to the places i had to travel to? but it didnt amtter than because i had you. my prized (wife) you thought i was gonna say gf but i guess we tired the knot. you said honey? what the hell are you taking about? you've been with me the whole nightr, i saw the expressions and way your body moved next to mine and it worried me so i woke you. ily. it was amazing. i thought hjad i gone crazy? why was i dreaming so much? like jumping into an other dream every few minuites but it was like movie hun. what woke me up is when you had to go pick up the kids and didnt come back, i called your cell and i heard silence is all that remains ands i droped me phone and said this wasnt real. that it couldnt be and then i woke up. i had taken a two and ahalf hour nap. wanna know something? like really? i was sweaty and jen said she went to goget the straightener and heardf me mummble i guess. it wasd crazyyy. it was so real, all hbeacuse i sleep sleep with the music on

So now I focus real hard on this one last thought. Can you hear it? I'll say it louder, did you hear it that time? Huh maybe? Did you hear be scream it? You didn't catch it? *puts hand behind your neck and draws you closer* maybe this time you'll hear me. *mouths, I love you* im gonna take a nap, im so cold. See you there <3 why am I sooo like bryan? Yours right? Still want dibs? You can't shake me, please don't ever try. I love you

Fact: sometimes i like this picture

everything will be okay

Sometimes i know whats best for me, even tho it dosent seem like it

Shadows set mood.
Innocence left the room.
And all I know to do.
Is shed a tear for you.

Oh, oh, oh, oh...

Please don't be ashamed whether you win or lose.
I just want you to know that I'm proud of you.
Don't be afraid when your fight is through.
I just need you to know that I'm here with you.

I can't watch you choose.
To pour salt in your wounds.
Now all I know to do.
Is say a prayer for you.

Oh, oh, oh, oh...

Please don't be ashamed whether you win or lose.
I just want you to know that I'm proud of you.
Don't be afraid when your fight is through.
I just need you to know that I'm here with you

i dedicate this song to someone i know,
for almost 15 years strong.

what is wrong with me?
i cant fix what isnt broken right?
thats what you told me. read my mind.
three words. if you really need a hint
the first three letters of the three words are the last three of emily's
name. (<3

yello im bryan,
and im not like
most boys around.

im strange.
love me for it?

<3

I dnt really know what to say journal, I was fibe minuites late to class today but truss understood. He knows my record. I told him a neded a few because of what I felt. I didn't really know I could feel it again. I thought it ended sometime ago. I walked to see her. I startled her when I asked her a qquestion. She looks amazing today. White suits her well. That white kid use to ask, if you were the type to snap and come in with a gun would you soot me? I always said no but that answer changed. I was so like mad at myself when I got to class. Wanna know something? The reason why I don't look back anyone when I walk is because im afriad that I'll look back and you won't be there. Now you got alittle inside my head. Im starting to feel better now with memories. If anytime came where you didn't want them I'd take them. Every single detail. But what would I do with them? I need to stop living in the past and thing people or just something to make me happyer in my future. But I only where I can find a goldmineof happyness.she's about five feet tall. Won't grow an inch more either. Cute huh?I just don't want to feel like I've made the wrong choice on friday journal, blog thing, whatver. Like when I go to the mall I feel like I should be somewhere else. Maybe with her. I just need to find somewhere I belong, like chester and mike. Linkin park. Im lame. I wanna see her. Well I do have a picture. That should be good for now. Cause I doubt I'll see her going to math. I hate to pick which hallway I think she might go but that's 50 50 and im not so good with luck. Well guess what pal?? Smacks himself. I was wrong. I did win with lady luck today.

*grabs you and lays you next to me sideways while I blog* dear beloved blog, its been a day since I last posted something but today I was happy =D isn't that great? <3 I still can't open my eyes all the way *I just wope up from a nap. Wells I dontknow what to say but I ust thought I'd tell ya that today I was happy, in away I still am vary much happy <3 bryan over and out <33 13

Mee(6:40:38 PM): this is what my cousion told me about seedless fruits, i always wondered how there was anyway in hell any plant can grow without a seed. i asked my big cousin roy cause when i was widdle i saw him as well GODDDD thought he knew all. so anywho a vary widdle and stupid bryan asked him, hey cousin? how do fruits grow without seeds? and he told me,.... listen up little cousin. a farmer gets the soil nice and soft then digs the holes where the seeds would go then ALMOSt puts the seeds in and says sikeee and then covers the dirt back up real quick and thats how fruit grows without seeds =) the end.

ashley (6:42:32 PM): lmao hahahahhahahahahahhaha awwwwwww thts so cuteeeee :] tht madee my dayyyyyy ur story is hot as flufffffff on a marshmallow even tho fluff is made from marshmalllow haha u were so cute and stupid back then bry but that so made my day, thanks =)

Why do ithink they don't like me as much anymore? Does she remember that I said I love you? That night hiding under the big thing at david's? Does mom and dad still like me? Whoa..... flash back much? =DD parkman and hero did the hip hop nbc thing! That's great! Whoaa.... blue flame dude. Syler looked so clean cut when her was with mohinder's father. I hope erka holds up. Kahtia will be fine without me.well I hope I look good tomorrow. Hahah "alright, get a room" whoaa linderman, this is greattt. Everyone looks so nice. He can handle the heat huh? Shakesspear huh? Kill him? What kinda father would will his own son? Clair's mom with mr. Blue flame? Duhhhh, makes sense.! =p. A noose? Suicide? Syler looks so much like a dork.he felt bad for kiiling him, whoaaa el saved him. Forgive me. My baby is so cute. Whoaaaa twilight thingy! Bed head hair much? Are you afraid? No! That's great. I wish I could touch her face, its always been so smooth. Its amazing how we feel and think alike. Some would call it freaky. I swear to anyone I knew what she was gonna wear coming back from germany. I'd put my hands on a bible and be in a shock chair. We're connected. Whoa. El and syler again. An angel with a broken watch. Gotta get the whales to sing? Read my mind? Patie's parents look so good together. Right? Right? Nathan flew.... that's horrible! Can you imagen? Seeing your love do that. Ya know peter and clair go out in real life? he's like six years older or more tho. Ahhh I think I might blog the who time. But my cell will die. Ily

I won't even pretend today,
Everyone gather arould, eh,
Mover closer, plastic smiles everyone! One, two, three! Fakess, =D

Donlt waste your time on me,
Your already the voice inside
My head <3 (imiss you)

kevin? How do you have ties with him?
myspace and aim? i never got a good vibe
from him and we just didnt like eachother
from sight. hahhahaha he musy think he scored
big with you. "aww dude do you know that faggot
from last year that dated catalia? well i think she
likes me and ha now i have her!" maybe he's saying something
like that. father was pissed at me becauce i was on aim and i had to
help him hide the wiress to the speakers connected to the projecter.
tough gig sorta. well im bumed cause we lost. now the ravens and us have
the same record 6 and 3. we need them to lose and we need to find thursday.
to stay one ahead of them. chase being such an asshole to kahtia and erka. fuck
him. ugh. wanna know what song is well can explain my mood? here ya go folks. enjoy

Axel here,
Ace sports reporter! =D
Coming to you live from the bar at red lobster in rockyy hilly. Bret frave led his jets to a huge win over the st louis rams, score 40 points in the first half! Final score was 48 to 3. *coagh* OWNNNED *coagh* sorry folks, anywho colepepper started in his fist game coming out of retirement. But the lions still couldn't manage to pull off a win from the jags. 38 to 14. Id love to work at a news paper. I could be just like kent. Well the food is out. Later folks! Ohhhand member to tune in to the steelers game at 4:16! Goooo steelers!!! <333

mahal kita...

dear loves,
ever heard of ronan keating?
does he have any of his OWN songs?
all i see from him are covers. i mean i like
them in ways but their never better than the originals.
my room is like lighting up and then going dark. guess the
clouds are moving in front of the sun. chandlyr's gift from
awhile back came in handly last night. i love this song vary much.
my hair is gay today. i think she has plans today. the bandage on my
left arm has been there for what like a month already? i think its gonna hurt
come the day i take it off. ohhh one of mothers friends had a surprise babyshower
for her. so she like alotish. did you mean what you said? do i have a great mind?
father and i worked something up, by october of next year imma have a car. umm today so far i went with father to drop off the guy's cash and went to pick up his credit card since he forgot it at bestfloors. i cleaned my room. so it looks neat. if our defence holds like monday then we'll beat the colts =). hope i didnt jinks us. i feel strange. well um later

i'll stay with you if you gimme a place to stay.
keep me away from them

If thats the way its gonna be blog than
i'll expect it. i'll have a brother and a saleen.
family and a toy. who needs love aways right? right...
yeah lets say yes. i wont cry now. kahtia is gonna hang
with jay later on today. shes really pretty. i only got a
half inch cut off. fred said i'd panic if he cut any more.
on 12/16 im getting red under my normal hair. im not feeling this, bye

*sigh* this day is great huh?...

Last December, what was your love life like?
love like winter <3 it was amazing to say the least


Who can you blame for your mood today?
the crew's girls =)


Do you wash your hair in the shower?
duh



Do you care what others think about you?
not really? i guess so but well to a certain point



If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
whoop some ass! hahahahah thats you you said cousin and
i dont think i'll change this one


What is your fear?
failure, rejection, loss, disappointment, yeah that sums it up nicely



How are you feeling right now?
happyish



What was your last argument about?
stupid mall crap


Last nap?
six days ago maybe?



Have you ever liked anyone that treated you bad?
nope


Where would you like to be right now?
mexico or these two other places. 335


Ever been told you were loved by someone who didn't mean it?
maybe? i have no cle but lie to me and say you do



Could you live your life without smoking a cigarette?
yucky. i have diary of dream now so i dont need em so yeah i could


What were you doing at 10:17 pm last night?
screaming a love song with the girls in the sliver spaceship =D
lmao, dont ask


Besides this, what are you doing right now?
listening to music and trying to connect with someone
in my mind by saying their name, lets see if their ears will ring


Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
nopes maybe like nine thos



Do you get mad when your current bf/gf talks about an ex?
she never got brought up unless i say whoreee and she laughs and say its true =)



Are you afraid to grow up?
in someways but for the most part no. seventeen forever anyone?



Was the person you last kissed physically attractive?
last kiss was forevers ago but yeahh she is

Want something you can't have?
where do i get started? yeahh i do but in
time maybe i can earn them



What do you do when you're sad?
listen to music, write


Do you hate the last person you kissed?
impossible much?



Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
honest, i think ive told this one person everything there
wasw in a secert in me. idk there was alot tho. maybe she could
get me to say more but it wont be easy, id ask for a thing that comes in
a pair that on her FACE. lmoa while i was typing that i thought of other things that
come in pairs that some people would get wrong so um yeah. face people, face.


Something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
yes sir



Has somone ever licked your cheek or forehead?
ohhh my god, this question is greatttt =p made me smile biggg but
nopes i havent had anyone lick my forehead or cheek



Last time you fell asleep in someones arms?
arms? maybe when i was a baby but i feel asleep like next to someone
a few times in my day


Last place you took a plane to?
texas


Have you ever been around someone who was high?
who hasnt? but yeah maybe twice a week



Two words to explain why you last threw up?
alot food


What are your plans for the weekend?
haircut today, game tomorrow



Ever kissed someone who smokes?
nopes


How many children do you plan on having?
two, maxxxx three. i hope id get two boys and a girl of three is the case.
so triple the protection for my little girl


Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
closed please, its kinda a must for me



Own more than 10 pairs of flip-flops?
dont even have one


What woke you up this morning?
the sound of my sisters voice saying "ryan was being so immature"



What were you like a year ago?
happy and hopeful



What is one fact about the last person who called you?
she's my mother


Baths or showers?
shower



Are you getting engaged any time soon?
sike. well now that you metioned it, =p. jk.



What's the best part about being single?
idonno? i alwayts say its full of long nights and loads of tumble weed


Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
ehh, not really,trying to find someone i could make a difference to tho


How do you feel about public displays of affection?.
kissing lips. cheek okay, exchaning saliva and humping on the green is like not okay tho =p


Last movie you saw in theaters, with who?
eageleye



How many pills do you take a day?
shoulda asked me this two years ago, but none



Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
nopes but i hope i wont get a shot. kinda look forward to it now to see what i weigh. last time i lost four lbs



What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
cold water

Note to self,
i think i'd be okay if i never saw an icp logo
for the rest of my life =)

Dear blog,
the mall suckedddd but the ride how with
the girls was amzinggg =p. erka, kahita and laura.
but i think i'd not wanna go to the mall this upcoming
friday. but dont take my word for it. umm im getting
a hair up at like 10:45. and ummmm lol she's 13. i got a little giigle out of
of when she toldd me. jay was in for like a half over of something and
his dad posted bail. partner you there? read my mind please

Dear loves,
i havent bloged in a vary short
while but it fely funny so im doing this kinda
now. this time im looking at my phone for the
time. so i sont show up an hour before class.
i have nooo idea tf imma do tonight. i coulkd see
autumn but its a friday night well day and you know what that means.
disapointment. plus kahtia and jay wont be i think. id just be, me her and
her friend. and eh. i dont wanna. i guess im gonna go the the game? but what if she cant? what if, nopes, if is for chiuldren. like mr. r said. well um lets hope today will be a good day.

As adam once said, word to the wise.
Don;t chase this one kids. trust me <3

Come on jay,
why man? as i told
my partner. i dont need
another joey, is it hard for
you guys to keep your noses clean?
like really man. ily and all but i can't
have you put in the slammer like joey with
the butt pirates. try to dress like a good boy,
and maybe try to put make up or something on your
neck tats. (sounds like a real nice dude huh? do you
guys whop dont know him at all) well i wish you the best
of luck on court this friday man.

Dear loves,
its 5;20 and well
im here. like always no?
i was jealous once of lia.
stupid huh? well jen isnt here yet and
some guy is over. we play the colts this thurdays?
nawww thats too soon. idks. read my mind please.
this song makes me feel so down =(. ummmm i dont
really know what to say now. nopes i dont. i liked the way i looked
in the morning but i couldnt find someone. i think sher bus was late.
history class was easy and science too. they flew by. tomorrow is a b day, score.
my bllod feels weak. i wish i could hold someone. oh sorry i was playing with a magnet. well im gonna go sleep or something

you

me

lets

fall

in

<3

He'd never leave me standing out in the rain,
no never in the rain, the curb yeah but not the rain...

it really could...

It's what i do

Love is a flame that can't be tamed
And though we are it's willing prey, my darling
We are not the ones to blame

Trust is a word all lovers know
The glorious art of staining souls, my darling
We are not the ones to blame
The more we have, the more we want
And the more it hurts our hearts, my baby
It always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending
Our heaven's worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it's alright
So keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending, it's alright

When doubts arise, the game begins
The one we will never win, my baby
It always ends up in tears

i Stood there for two hours with my vote for obama sign =D
i saw maya, carlos and lia!!1 <333 they yelled mt name and waved.
i wish i could have huged then and span them around. i got
so many beeps and thumbs up and just so much!!! joey barly got
anythjing with his mccain sign. my body is still cold but it was
well worth it. i feel good. kahtia was sooooo proud of me. i tryed calling
her but i got no luck =( maybe shes mad because i didnt get her calls last night?
i swaer little one i didnt have my phone on me. well its 6:29 and im going to tag along with my mummy to go vote. late loves. bryan <3

eh, remind me to post this somewhere later

Hiii, im axel, Im 14 and about 67 inches tall , I have light brown eyes and black hair with honey colored highlights kinda, im a pretty shy guy,it dosent take alot to make my day, a simple glance or hug will do. I adopted the name axel because my name is too common and i felt like i could be adifferent person with it. idk deadline lyts




Hey i'm bryan, i'm 16 years young and i stand at 5'7 1/2 =P.
i have well light brown eyes, I'm super shy and if i think your
a cutie then most likely i'd be dead silent unless i know
if i don't do something I'll regret it. anywhoo um if you
see me around say hi im friendly, i swear i don't bite. It
doesn't take much to make my day, a simple glace will even do
sometimes. but i like hugs. i collect anything that has to do
with batman and im looking for love.... not having much luck with
it but i try. i do. If you wanna talk outside this ask for one of
my screen names OR if i think your a cutie then we can text but
that's for me to be the judge of.

Morning blog,
i woke at 9;37.
i cant barely see cleary yet.
karma. ha. mother is asleep. nothing feels
real. is all that we see or seem but a dream within a dream.
well imma clean up and then come back

Last night i heard you speaking, i heard your whipser...

Forgive me for i was in the office watching the game.
as you maybe saw we had a really slow first half.
i believe in you ben but byron throws faster. bryan's
like is vary much like the legos he builds. they get
torn up and rebuilt daily. Im the one that has to clean
up and take after him. tough gig but the pieces arent
so small anymore. i still he needs time to make soild.
A rule in the house now is that i cant have the brick
out when its game time, come kick off its shut down.
im really sorry that i missed your calls, i wasnt ignoring
you. honest. i dont think my hand will ever quite feel the
same again. its late. 11:21. are you dreaming?

What you don't know is that some of them wished they hadn't surlived.

And so i sit here one hour before game time.
seems like i have to confide in my journal only.
i'll be needing a new one soon thos ive almost used
up all the pages. dear bryan, stfu. yeah has a ring
to it. i feel sick but i wont go into details. she
makes me feel better. wow, theres no hopeful tunes
on the brick. well a few but damnnn. i have no idea
what i'll end up doing tomorrow. i dont wanna see anyone
really. guess i'll hang at home. mi tio got me a cool
shirt from that witch town in mass, salem? =D reminds me
of saleen <33 i saw a lovely mustang today in the parking
lot. joey needs to cheak his ringer, ive called him so many
times. if mother names him syler's real name imma just call
him gaby. mother showed me some of the clothes shes gotten him =)
its cute. shhhhhh i need to get em some dc's =D swaerr to GODD i will
get him a pair. he'll keep it real like his big bro. im trying to
keep hopeful. ummmmmm told i looked gross? my lips were so dry that they
felt smooth. ummm im not gonna lie, im crushed. i'll be leaving now later loves

Gone

(i like it tons, it has that tchno feel to it)
(lol it makes me wanna jump and move =)
(i can relate to the lyrics so much)


<3

ummm what gives?
it feels like it should be nine
or even ten but it isnt even 6:30 yet.
i guess this would be a good day if your spending
it with someone because its beem such a long day,
not so much fun when your dad is hungover, when
your mother is out and jen is with sam. ummmmmmm
i wish there was a nightmare on elm street on, that'd
save the day. ummmssssss imma go now..... *walks away,
looks back, pushes through the door and looks back......






Runs back and takes her hand, she's coming with*

i can't stop listening to these guys, amazing much?

ummmmmm me datty is a lazyyy bum =p
im in a rather happy mood

Whoa... someone reads my blog! =D
just to let you know, reading that comment on
the post below was the best thing to happen to
me all day

Dear blog,
father got shitfaced shitfaced last
night. i dont want to eat. i dont like
my hair. sunday imma do something to it.
i wonder if she'll watch the game since
heroes wont be on. this slow is slow...
even for me. but guess what? i still like
it. its different. jen's going to sam's
again. great. and mother is asleep.
i wonder what shes doing. is she with
him? is he sitting down trying to avoid
hitting the penguins? while gaby is yelling
at him? if i didnt know the lyrics to this
song i'd think it would be creepyyyy. ummm
wanna know something? in every post i try to
include a part of the song im listening to at
the moment into the post. but i think you people
might have noticed? nothing will be in this one.
i saw his grandfather's jeep just drive down the
hill. i wonder if joe's home. im sorta like blahh.
ish. =p. i guess im just here left to answer my own
questions. i cleaned my room and i like it again now.
my window blinds are never open. thats a fact. i think
later on imma count the comics in the box. between us
i think we have alot. can i still say we? umm well i
guess im gonna go look for a movie to watch online or
something or maybe just go straight to counting.
over and out

What im afraid of most is walking through that door and never feeling the same way I do as when im with you...

Guess she has the curse of curves

So yea....
Tumble weed. Great.
Well im been watching candyman on youtube for the last hour or so. Almost done with it just like two more parts or so. No one has been online, well anyone "good" and when the blue light has been on it was no one good either. But yet again only so many people have this sn. Ugh. Chill dude. We play tomorrow at 8;30. Prime time vs the redskins. I thought I was gonna be messed up the next day but I remembered we don't have school tuesday :] but yet again im not gonna do anything that day =/ idks peoples. Who needs this? Amy? Cat? Emily? Idks. Listening to ohio is for lovers unpluged. Jt sounds so much better this way. Sad and slow. She wouldn't like it. I heard some new akon song today in the tank. Imma have to get it. I don't really know what to say now. Um well I cleaned my rom so its super neat. I need to go get some new comics. Amy keeps signing on and off. Jason won't like text back. Only kahtia. But naw I won't text her till like nineish. Someday the right person will like me. Yeah someday. Three weeks till im 15. But by then the kid will almost be well scream. A monthish from my birthday. That'll be cool in a way. Imma be his like best friend growing up. Well when he comes and vists to our steel city. All the girls there will love te steelers? Yeah huh? Blah. Well imma um go do something? If you wanna talk, text the brick or um idks. Later

Three weeks from today is my 15th birthday =)

Recap of nov 1,
well talked to her in the morning,
watched i know what you did last suummer
with jen, talked to her on aim again.
then got a heart from her when i almost
went to bed, kahtia was happy for me.

I see the same thing when I close my eyes, even when I blink....

I miss being a part of them =X

I hold my lips back these days

(theres two more pictures but not sure if i like them too much, if you wanna see
comment one of these and ask for the other two)

Tell me whatcha thinks? =)

(janices always says my hair looks perfect but thats not always true)

WhOa!!!

It's nov already!!!11!1
like it felt like it'd always be
october, always. i just noticed the
date not more than 30 seconds ago when
i posted a post on my life. its my month
now, welcome to myyy world. feel free to
walk in or walk out now. that like made my day.