I wasn't going to beg. *sigh* I wasn't... I didn't. Its his choice. Not mine. I hope he made the right one. Whichever that one might have been. I don't know too many people here. I see my framilar faces fixed in the crowd but eh. How stupid must I look lol. I think I look kinda cute here. Jen's at sam's house. Im so sorry mama. I don't like letting my real world side out. Its just that I don't feel safe enough to come out yet. Its cold and when even hiding behind his leg (like a kid) I feel the cold breeze. I still wonder if you think of me. I wonder why you wouldn't meet my gaze. And the way you stood. Like you just wanted to leave. I try to makeout things. Moods of people around me. Lately I just feel blah. Like I eat but it isn't because im hungrey. Its because I have to. I think of it when edward eats human food. Im not sure why. The gift I got myself for well this day, christmas was an other braclet with the cullen family crest. Im cheap, 20 bucks. I guess its time to go back now =/ hello world....