bryan herei guess, trying to get in the mood to sing along to dimelo. jen's half awake and my brother is awake. but i bet not for long. *sigh* if the table were turned i wouldnt have told the person what i saw. what for? i would make it easy for them and not bring it up each class we have together. kahtia's right. i just have to focus on myself. throw everyone else to the wind. and let them fall where their ride ends. what landen and jamie said is bothering me. " i have my believes, i have faith but dont you?". "no i dont, theres too much bad shit in this world" "without suffering there wouldnt be compassion." "try telling that to those who suffer" shut up mr.vann!. this is why i hardly leave the "saftey" of my mind. because like landen said theres too much bad shit in this world. wars happen outdooors. *sigh* but so does a fair, where a couple might go on a ferris wheel together. all my questions point to one answer but i dont want to come to terms with it. but when i do it'll make things easyer. im sort of proud of myself. i said the word "when" and not if.