bryan, wolve, fake, angel, boy, whatever you are get over yourself, get over her,
she dosent want to see you always, she dpsent want you there every second like she might have. just stay away from her, and you wont slip up, you cant wait for her to see her in the morning. she cant be the fist and last thought on your mind every single day and night. she cant. i oont care if your implusive always just keep yourt mind off her. but your so fucking stobborn, since i told you not to think of her you will, well get it out of you, take her out of you. because believe it or not you are someone without her. your heart beats, it pumps blood through your rains. your alive. in mind, in your feelings maybe not but you are real. you feel everything normal people do, you feel sad, happy, hyper, and every other feeling in betrwen. i hate asking for advice because i already know what do to, it just feels good hearing it from an other. there is life bryan, look at the sunrise, the moon, the children's laughter, flowers, there is other beauty besides her. just get over her, this isnt the time. and maybe tomorrow wont be either but there is hope for you. just wait it out, know the song we like? pretending? just keep on pretending love, our heaven's worth the waiting. please wipe those tears from your eyes, theire silly. does it not hurt her like it does me? fine to make you feel better i'll say it kills her too but she's tough, tougher than you. and hows that for you, a girl being stronger than boy. he strong. make yourself believe your that stupid wolve if thats what makes you feel better, if it gets you through your days. replacing the imange of her at the end of the road, smiling with her arms wide open. i know you wish you were jacob from the books you like., you wish you could phase and just run, run and never turn back, staying as a wolve so long that it feels strange to be human. but jacob got his hope. his love, nessie. you will too, somewhere in seven billion people. someone loves you outthere. just believe, keep your chin up but at least try. just, for me. if it means just acting like your okay in school and the csecond the bell rings you fall apart i'll be there to collect you. piece you back together. like a puzzle, ugh dont even remind me of the egg that fell off the wall and shattered and all the king's men couldnt put him back together again. thats a children's book. you are 15 years old, quit the four yearold act, it isnt cute. grow up, act your age. you cant hurt youself. so get those ideas of your mind, your mate wouldnt like to see reminders that her partner was ever in pain. i know sometimes you want to brake all promises and cut with a peice of those broken promises but you cant. just stay away from her. and if you cant force her out of your mind then just shut up to it to the others. we;ll keep it between us. me and you. she dosent need you right now, so set aside the thought of always protecting her. take noah and claire for an example, all her tryed to do was save her, protect her and she ended up hating him. wait but loving him too, after she understood he never ment for wrong. but you cant expect that of a 14 year old girl. life should be great for the both of you. and looks like hers is, your a drag to her, hahahaha fine, maybe eye candy to her but a fdrag, y our always needing her, wanting her, and if you want me to say im sorry, than im sorry for careing too much catalina. you dont mean that. ugh, see, first leason in being stronge bryan, saying things tyou dont mean is sometime best. but iots wrong. their lies. yeah they are but it makes things um not better but frozen
? worse? but i believe in you, you can fix things, if she just lets you. and that might be for years so just try. get a life, get outheres, make plans, laugh and smile. like she does. i understand now. do you think im crazy? that was all that was in my mind. all i want now is sleep. the same line is repeating in my head. "i hope to lose myself for good, and find it in the end but not in me, in you" would i still be in you? i hope so, im sorry im meant to keep this to myself. when we were arguing i hoped she's sit on my lap, grap my face with both hands and kiss my forehead and just waited a second for me to understand, i would have let then. but that didnt happen. i cant look back anymore, but she wont be there, i cant see her, or maybe tyhats its that i cant see her just back off and show that you dont show interest? ugh well that was my plan but now you now. there wont ever be a second that i wont care. myself always being there dosent make things easy and i know that, fully now i do. and since all i want to do is help, im gone. there will come a day that you'll be like bryan who? not, shut up, dont even think that, like no matter what she'd know who you are, never forget. one time i saved her. brought her happyness when she need it most. like peter, i saved the cheerleader so they could save the world. i helped catalina. i wish i could be sucked into her book and live there. i'd be edward, and she'd be bella. *sigh* ily bryan. your such a butt tho, this wont be an easy job