Isnt someone missing me?

please, please forgive me, i wont be coming home again.
you wont cry for my absence i know. blog? i wont leave like jess,
i wont. if she has to hate me to be someone in my life so be it. at least
she'll be around to give me dirty looks and tell her friends im an asshole.
if this is how we're going to be then you can have manhunt, i was really going to
go but i can have jay pick me up and we'll find something to do in the state. *sigh* so i siy here on my bed, lisetning to amy sing. i covered my pillow with a steelers pillow cover, two girls have said they love me now, but i wont be a homewrecker. i wont touch them,]. if anything i'll move away to protect their relastionships. i wont let myself become the reason of a breck up. i can hear a man's voice that i dont not know. guess its the one that came to fix the heat. i wonder if im 280 now.
ugh imma go back to seeing jen again. not that itss a bad thing but goshh. i talked to mrs. ryan today, i miss her alot. the dualing clocks in jen's office. now im listening to diddy and faith evans, i'll be missing you. i can listen to this song forever. ha but thats what i said about mac and cheese. idks. but i like this song. i really dont know what to ask for my day of birth. i'll be 15. i miss you guys, i want to come back as soon as i can. looks like this summer i can stay. two months