you keep changing
your mind like
clouds in the sky.
you love me when your high,
and always leave me when you cry.

sigh* like pac said, thats just the way it is.

miss me kids?
took a shower.
i wonder whats on her mind.
gosh thats something i havent asked in
god knows how long =/

Happened again man.
i can't be doing that.
I wont get it but hoping
it will. i like what she
calls me. i hope i dont
need to call jason to
get me. i don't. ugh but
why do i feel like i will
have my finger on his key
for speed dail? maybe its cause i will.
its a gti jetta. turbo.
so i sit here on my bed
like normal days, just like
any other day. day in the life
i guess you could say, i do like
the sound of that. dill's gf is
pretty. please i have to be okay
tomorrow, i wont be the boy in white
sitting on his window sill. not this
time around. last year i gaveout candy.
it's 9:32. but i dont want to bug him,
take him from his plans so maybe if i feel it
i'll walk hoome. but i really dont want to. i pray
i can hold it together.father likes my project for tech.
i like it too. ihope, ilove <3 night little one

I didn't really think about it,
Just the thought of someone keep away with something that's yours got me. Plus he did the same to be onc2. I hated it. Now I have to make it up to him somehow. Dream ta make believe. I understand, lover boy out

If i was your best friend, would you want me around all the time?

i cant relly count how many times ive said
"do i ever cross your mind, anytime'. the
song is timeless, i honestly feel asleep to it
the night before we three went home. prgress with
my right hand, i can put some presure on it now.
she wouldnt ant me to put any on it thos. i hope
we beat the redskins. portis, their running back
is leading the league with 944 yards.but we have the
besy defence around so we should be able to shut him down.
we need to avoid turnovers, penalties, and hold the line and
protect ben. but the line and brotecting ben goes hand and hand.
troy said we need a new qb, i wanted to slap him lol. en is amazing
if we can hold him in the pocket. he payed 100 million for him for the
next ten years. no heroes this week =/. great. autumn texted me today,
wonder why. maybe she had a change of heart. eh, i dont wanna talk about
it. i showed amy the funnyest thing i sawand heard all day. its 10:23, hold
up. gotta go brush my teeth. kay back. do you like my clean look? but honest
it kept my face a little bit warmer in the morning's cold. i musta sad this
alot not but my birthday is coming up soon. i cant wait till new years. new
brother. i member last year's new year. i texted her. you. hey you know that
wasnt the first time someone thought you were related to my mother. it happened
twice before or so but we didnt translate, just smiled. remember the lady at
the ghetto dairy queen. she said you were smart. imma be the bestest guy to him.
imma carry him tonsss. he'll be cool as hell -) imma show em batman and all the
things i loved as a kid.... =D i still love them too, wont lie, power ranges,
hey arnold and stuff. the 90's were the best times for tv. remember as told by
ginger? <33333 i loved that show but sh. where's the party still? imma wear the hoodie i got in the summer. tad big tho, by they all are. jens gonna striathen her hair in my room. she says i blog too much. i dont think i do. use toish? maybe? well im gonna talk to my big sister. night loves, bryan <3

dear loves,
today was good day for moods.
not so much looks. father keeps telling
me that well that my middle finger is....
anywho tomorrow is a b day so score. joey
dosent answer his phone =( guess he's too busy
now playing ff. erka's mom killed herself about
six or seven years ago and her dad's been talking
shit about her lately to erka and erka is so sad =(
i wish i knew what to say to her but im afriad that if i try to help
i'll set her off or make things worse.

Dear loves,
father just put some cream so the swelling
in ny right hand will hopefuly go down. loves?
things will get better, shes not a lier, osnt a bitch,
your not a dog. your perfect the way you are. there was
no way she could ever convice me to say she isnt perfect or gorgrous.
to me she is alway that. this is must be how you felt. missing your bryan.
im here now but wheres the party mama? wheres everyone? they'll come back for
me wont they? the projector downstairs is set to 80'. better than any tv ive ever scene and so clear cause of hd. imma hook up the ps3 to it when i get it. the way im typing is slow because my right hand. i move my finger over it and just gp stright down. oey is too busy playing FF tonight. i hope shes with cloud tonight, that bear is always dressed to killl =) in a penguin suit. i think imma sleep with my hat on? election tims is coming. reminds me of that awesome song i posted a few days back. i hope tomorrow's a day flys back. kiss my hand? maybe it'' work wonders and it wont hurt anymore. maybe i could do the same to your feelings with an embrace. i real one. maybe i could be like peties dad and just take it from you. my bed is big. a queen. kahita's school gives her tons of work. shes the youngest out of us all. jay[s the oldest. would you wanna me to go to mexico for the summer? i wish you could stay for a week this me there. but you parents would say no and shoot it down right there? im not sure. itd be an awesomee trip with you there. im listening to alisononfire. i need to dust my cars. i hope halloween is a good one. i havnt had a good once since i went with jordan way back. we got so much candy that night. i need to shave. its yucky whats on my chin. i wish roy would move here someday. but idk. imma laydown. guess theres not tummy here =/ no cool sounds or softness =/ bummmerrr. maybe someday. thats my boy. hope. well in the time it takes things to get me imma sit tight, lay here and read my comics. dork always =) love ,bryan

it's okay baby boy,
hang in there. someday everything
will be okay. i wont say it'll be soon but someday
it wont hurt anymore. but i cant promise. i cant lose sleep
over this again.

=X

Isnt someone missing me?

please, please forgive me, i wont be coming home again.
you wont cry for my absence i know. blog? i wont leave like jess,
i wont. if she has to hate me to be someone in my life so be it. at least
she'll be around to give me dirty looks and tell her friends im an asshole.
if this is how we're going to be then you can have manhunt, i was really going to
go but i can have jay pick me up and we'll find something to do in the state. *sigh* so i siy here on my bed, lisetning to amy sing. i covered my pillow with a steelers pillow cover, two girls have said they love me now, but i wont be a homewrecker. i wont touch them,]. if anything i'll move away to protect their relastionships. i wont let myself become the reason of a breck up. i can hear a man's voice that i dont not know. guess its the one that came to fix the heat. i wonder if im 280 now.
ugh imma go back to seeing jen again. not that itss a bad thing but goshh. i talked to mrs. ryan today, i miss her alot. the dualing clocks in jen's office. now im listening to diddy and faith evans, i'll be missing you. i can listen to this song forever. ha but thats what i said about mac and cheese. idks. but i like this song. i really dont know what to ask for my day of birth. i'll be 15. i miss you guys, i want to come back as soon as i can. looks like this summer i can stay. two months

hey you guys,
i feel peaceful.
mind is racing so im just writing whatever comes to mind.
so yeah things have been going wrong here, the heating around this
place went out? like the water is freezzinggg and night are cold and tthe
mircowave broke? and some other small things, we joke around and say one of us messed up bad so god is punnishing all of us for ir. i had a sub with joey today.
the days are flying by, i feel like loving someone. too bad tho. this is the single life, *tumble weed blows past me* this is the life alright! just like mr.ryan.
i was at joey's house for a while too, played gta4 on his ps3. funnn. well imma so do something loves, keep your chins up, warrior boy out

My hand.
Hurts so, much.

small, disposable, ever changing

Listen up,
This is what I wrote
Int my journal, im not the boy I act like, I've only been late to class at most twice. Your right, my knockles hurt, guess I was always theone to learn the hard way.

Telling people to never change is stupid because time does things. No matter what you say. Okay so lets say jane and jon love one an other vary much and then jane left, OR jon, wouldn't want anyone out there mad at me. Butthey promised to love one an other "forever" bullshit. He or she will go and fuck around with others. While the other one of them is alone in time. Playing mr. Or mrs. Faithful. Time will break you down and then slowly rebuild you with new pieces so you can handle the pain for tomorrow. So it won't huer again. You'd "love" one an other but soon you will cross paths and will walk right past one an other without glance or a hello. That's just the way things are. Im trying to stay hopeful. But its hard. But I must pull through

ihope

Its the new thing from apple *smiles*
I think the last time i smiled the old way so that it
made the sound was when you were hitting me with my shirt.
the sound is like geeting less loud, it suckkss. heroes was crazzyy
tonight. BIG time. So much is happening. dontcha just lovee mondays?
The days pass now, almost too fast, thats one wish granted. father and
i made an outlet the ghetto way =p thinking creativly, so keeping it mexican.
i think joey is gonna spend the night saturday and we're gonna watch heroes.
my hand just had a sudden pain. and again, maybe its that someone saying i should
fall asleep now. yeah this pain in my good typing hand wont let up so i bid you farewell blog. talk ya ya laters?

BaMmMm!!!

single most happyest moment ive had in weeks much?

Tommy oliver,
best power ranger ever much?
The evil green ranger, white tiger ranger,
red zeo ranger and black dino ranger.
she cares more than most. heroes is almost gonna be on.
i feel gross so imma take a shower, wash away the sins
of the day. im listening to hello. tahoe it is. white?
black 24's tho. black leather inside. jason and the crew can
have their fast death traps.wells, yucks i see the blue light on
the brick, yuckksss this sounds nastyyyy its all chopy! O.o

Dear loves,
i nearly got a chemical
burn today. i wonder....
cool scvar? ugh stupid much?
well today was alright, i looked
horrid but it was an okay day for
feelings. mom set up a things so i can get
my meds back =/. i just need one out of the three
this time tho. i cant yell, my voice brecks and john and jess laugh.
*slaps myself so hard* there was no reason nwy i should have fought myself
today. its a no, got it bryan? i'll make it clear to me. wont happen again.
jen got two shots today. eh, imma text jay, wait..... he's asleep. he dosent wake till like what four? it was co windy that night in his jetta. fast little thing.
i could beat it in my stang, easy =p. good. im doing it. Over and out

i wish he could.
i wish he would.

Morning blog,
i still cann't put my hands into a fist,
i went to ed at like 1:30. For being october, autumn...
there isnt alot of GOOD horror movies on. Steelers play
at four this afternoon. im picturing me leaning on a saleen,
dream much? i do that now i guess... say something and then much?
erka says since alot. Iwas learning to the tunes on my phone and i heard
where'd you go, i thought she was calling me so i quickly pulled the phone out
of my pocket and cheacked.... guess that song did that to me since she hasnt called
in days. This song reminds me our our shoes... My super secret awesome band. im good
at finding things out and clues like my hero. bruce wayne. *sigh* okay man, its okay. I remember two halloweens ago. i sat on my window will and watched the kids them down below walk to the front doors and get candy. i remember last halloween, things barely got started and they had fire in their eyes. It was the happyest time of his life. *open arms* hug anyone? i could use one here. blog, this week im not looking forward to friday, halloween. i dont want to go to john's party and autumn wouldnt want me. manhunt. when I first started writing this I swear my intentions were well and i'd start with maybe a memory or two. keep your chin up love... believe

and this is where my heart is cold and torn,
as I read the words you wrote last night,
the butterflies are creeping through my spine.

So he wets his lips, sets his bangs aside,
brings up the barrel of the gun, looks into the mirror
for the last time, *mauh*


*bang*




And he shot

the






mirror.

Nine and ohhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
=D smoothh sailing from now on boys! <33333
the band i heard in jason's car is amazing.
never thought he'd like a band that sounds like this
. because when i think his taste i think screamming and rap.
but not this. this is greatt. perfect happ bryan music.

Homecoming night

jay and erka saved my night. they ramdomly picked me up at best buy.
we drove to the westfarms mall then just drove and drove. sounds boring but
at least i wasnt alone. father checked my eyes to see if i was high, asshole much?
i have hope. erka wants me to get the saleen, she says it wouldnt fit much if i got the tahoesince all of us have fast cars. ive had this song on repeat for the whole day now. autumn and erka are at one an other. i told erka in the car not ten minuites ago that they cant fight because autumn is too small. too light. protective much? she said that. it was soooo windy!1!1 ohh my godddd. lmaoooooo what was said in the jetta stays there. we like nearly died tonight. the car on the fucking flatbed like moved so much, we all got scared and it looked like red and yellow thunder? we were like did someone put some shit in our drinks? mamybe a concert?

Cookie! Cookie, COOKIE!
freaking out now, hope he dosent
feel akward, i told em i was gonna keep
the pipe =p dont worry dude, someday, someone is gonna
make it well worth it. Please dont tell me all about you night.
laterrr

He knows i know now.
Im good, i even guess how long.
a week. my voice shakes. i wont go into
the dc box, it wont help me. only i
can elp me now. I make girls too much,
its high school man. no one wants to be
tied down. Autumn dosent want me and ben
either. not going to selem today either,
father thinks my finds are drug addicts,
lik your father thinks i am john. guess
its the crew im in. kahtia is bumed that
i cant come. ive been listening to cookie
jar fo a whhile now,i like girls, they dont
like me =p.

So you guys want to know about yesterday?
went to the mall about about 3:45 since mother didnt want to
gto to manchester twice. Jay told me he'd be :right there: but with him that means
an hour or two so i walked with andy and tajh. the guy that dated kimi got dumped and he calls me sexytime lmao. he only talks spanish to me. oh i met my white counter part =) he's cute Xp. i know every scene kid at the mall. kahtia took jason and i by the ears it was amazing. jay wore neon orange pants. my legs were killing me and autumn nailed on me. bummerrr. to the outside world it looks like we're dating, laura was with me alot because she said she shouldnt have told me she was coming all week and then bailed on me. she's 18. im the youngest. wait nooo, kahtia is. but she looks 16, she's the smallest girl ive ever met, like what 4"10? sarah didnt work today? but i walked past her and waved biggg and she smiled and said hey baby, she loves us. im so unstable. im like super happy sometimes, sad, disapointed, lost. hopeful, suicidal? no that isnt the right word? i cant believe tom would comment his ex's photo, her kissing dyllan. and sayiong they are so cute. i need to take a shower, today is homecoming, i wont hear the end of it today. she'll look amazzing, just like the other dance. enjoy yourself. and your company, i think yuod dance with well john and your boy. i didnt see ben at the mall last night and he wouldnt answer his brick. i dont wanna hit up the mall today. no, no. no. gotta keep hope. hows the cookie jar cat? can you keep your hands out of it? you hate having the grade like you? i always told you thar your amazing, beautiful and now they see it, i think they always have. chandlyr didnt believe she was either but they did and now well she cant get her hands out the cookie jar, eh not having onje is alright. i'll fly under the thingy, crums. if i do ask her out itd be because im sure of myf eelings and hers. today i think i might go with mi tia? i have no clue. go for whatever you want, no boy will ever be out of your reach, look in the mirror. you might like it but they will, i do. always did. guess this is where i go now, *tips hat and throws jacket over one shoulder* just like the cool kids =)

Cookie jar =D , pstt but i cant find mmy own but i love there two songs, jay listened to these alkl night, and this, stay fly <3 lmao just like jason

We had nails, piss, balloons and so much,
someone is gonna slip and things WILL go flying.
maybe im over reacting? i told them to keep her safe if anything
really does yhappen. truss gave me the thumbs up and i left so
here i am at home. my headache is still here and it sucks. today should be
a good day. ugh my headache, sorry about well the last time we saw eachother
today, im sure you knew what i wanted to do, i had to walk away though. i just hope
things will be okay someday, yeah i think they will, i just have to believe in hope

Guess you never called back,
you can still be my bestfriend.
This girl rold me that she had a huge
crush on me for like two years and thinks im
hott =p. says shed still like me if she didnt have
a bf. sys shse loves that i give you everything and that
im quite, faithful and just the overall perfect boyfriend. think
she might have over done but but that made me happy, id tell you her name hbut you didnt bother to return my call. i love jane and jason and claire and erka. they are like weekend LIFE. and during the weekits you, sav and joey m. i need joe k back. sweet he picked up his phonee =D ive been the best best mood for what like two hours now, texted everyone. i loved the hug you gave me in the hall, i fee like i already said this but one thought went through my head when you gave itm, " i love getting tangled with you" life isnt that bad, i gotta think like this always. <33

Dear blog,
My nap sucked and I missed her, like she logged on and I was asleep =/. Crab cakes for dinner, yummy. Mother and iare gonna go to the gym later on. Father is getting heated because the raven wanted to hurt mandenhall and hines, and they got mandenhall, mandenhall said we were gonna beat them so I guess they wanted to hurt him and that they did. Now they want hines because he knocksout one of their own like every game. Hines is 32 if he gets hurt now he could walk away, we don't need this. Maybe I have power like hiro, be rght back. Okayy... or not, I stared at the clock and like did this sthing there my vains on my head sorta kinda showed and nothing happened. I just want it to be friday. Thougt I posted this too. Well I just talked to you, you didn't seem to catalinaish. I don't like it when you say something and then I hear the ringing on my ring. I hardy heardy your goodbye. When it was ringing I said sweet dreams to you too catalina, sleep well. Guess I'll always be the nice guy that finishes last. Wait nope I can't think that way. What jason tells me always is repeating in my mind. "Keep your head up man. Its 11:11. Kay I made my wish. im gonna bethebest boy I can be blog. I have to say no to my wolve. Down boy... memories. Gotta follow my heart. That's my boy, heart first. Learning to love myself, I don't wanna be cocky. Emily didn't text back. I still have the round bandaid on my left, upper arm. I can breath and my throat dosent hurt too much. I didn't like what she said that one time but oh well I guess she can say whatever shed like. I wanna have something blog. I do. Someday. "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift, that's why we call it the present." Lil wayne. I like a lot of what he says. Listening to 50. Hate itor love it. I think you'd maybe like it catalina. You knew all the questions. I gotta believe blog. Believe. Loves, if you have the chance to stop the regret your living in now, take it. You only live once, might as well be happy. Don't be one of those who chose sadness. God is love, rev run =p I love it when he says that, god is love, rev run. Maybe I should listen to my words. But I can bud in. It wouldn't be right. She's with, chose your words wisely. Sorry I don't wanna mess up and rise new things. Goodnight

Dear blog,
I has in a happyy mood today =) that hug was the best thing I've had in a while, I would go into details but like I feel like it wouldn't be right? Wanna know something stupid? Im watching the proud family, I haven't watched this in god knows how long. I wish I could have my wish. Well I think iam going to the rally, if only, if only

It's so violence since you're gone

I think this is the song you wanted little one

Stupid much?
i told myself no windsor girls
but itd be so much easyer, i could see them and walk
to them but i just lost all interest in warrior girls.
they dont light anything in me. manchester girls are strange.
ugh, idk, someday, maybe somedayc soon someone will long for me

Dear blog,
Today is interesting.
What made my day was seeing that kid with paint on his face, likke the joker. Your friend chriss wore paint too. Think she'll text me first again? I wanna talk to joey. I wish I could give you a hug. kay so now im here, at the house. sorry that i had to leave, just thought id make riley feel okay. and well make things less akward. joey has a detention. he got it in band. lame huh? i even forgot that he was in band, he never talks about it. i think john and i are on bad terms now. thursday already when i get back there. my throat hurts sooo bad =( in my journal i wished that someone would bit... kiss my neck. it hurt. that girl seemed happy when i gave her my coffee. and this other girl looked at me for a second too long, well if she thought i was cute then im flatered, there was a few kids with joker things on. but its superhero bad not like bad people. joey tryed to bust my balls by saying batman isnt a superhero cuasde well he was no powers. still a hero. maybe not superhero? naww, bestest hero ever.i texted. goshhh it hurts so bad.

Shhhhh riely

You wouldnt want bryan to findout now would you?
no, i dont think you wanted that, not at all. Can you feel
the paranoia set in yet? Don't worry you were good at hideing your secret,
for whole day. You told me john, i cant believe you, after i told you not to tell
me. and you said who? you mean riley? i didnt want a name and now i have a name that i can easly match with a face. Goodnight.

she hasnt texted yet, which is a little bit odd.
im use to talking to her so much and seeing the glowing blue light in my pccket
always. Maybe she's just havin one of those days, or just forgot her phone. i have
no idea. i want to be there for her so she wont screw up too bad, maybe i can
help her build good habits but that'll take alot of backing her up and catching her.
im i ready to board this trian? it feels nice being responible for someone even tho
most would say it should be this way. no one should have to hold the other up?
no that wasnt worded right, idk but ill be there. My school day was okay, i told
truss that im leaving ear;y because im gonna skip the rally. so what now? im lisening to i'm sorry. i guess i wasnt cut out for her in the end. i believe its joey. a secret. jane and clair arent their real names. but i think you guessed that much and know their real ones. joey wants to go to subway but im not in the least bit hungrey. someone thats always been there huh? justsort of happened. it didnt hurt, i told myself it wouldnt and i fought the pain. maybe soon i can get use to it again. im just not sure. jen shuld be getting here soon. i feel like ive been here at this place for four hours. i wish i could see clair. i hope the b day flys by. the whole week please.... well i shpuldnt keep him waiting. i think i'll just get a coffee. babye, blog

so you didnt watch the game huh? just found out.
talking to your mom, ben, jay wont text back and erka told me to fuck off,
we're worried about her. i wonder if you maybe missed me like i missed you. everyone was wearing their bed gear. i wonder if you wore yours. today the pats play prime time but i wont watch since heroes is gonna be on. ugh tomorrow is an other yucky a day. this week will friday by, i already feel it. the rally friday and that dance too... blahhh. im bryan. thats me, yeps. im sort of lame. my last name has a z in it. i wonder if you still read this worthhless nonsense amy. if you do then HIII AMY!. she texted me during reading today, she feel asleep on me last night. looks like mom is busy because she isnt talk anymore. it was mi tio's birthday yesterday. today dosent feel like a monday. nopes it dosent. hines knocked this guy outtt yesterday, the hit broke his jaw. the election is soon. so john met the kids huh? did they like him? i miss them tons. please give em huge hugs for me next time you see them and say they were from me. wish i was 16. i want to drive. im listening to frankie j. i hope friday night is worth something. maybe it will. i have noooo clue. im bored. and for the most part empty minded. talking to jess on aim isnt worth it, she spends all day playing that stupidd online game. sav is always on. ash is sometimes on. not really so. i guess once in a blue moon. ohhh wasnt it collddd this morning? ttyl loves

looking at saleen are no fun anymore =/

you got shots today too?
well i just got one for hepi c.
heroes tonight, gym soon. i lost four lbs,
i was surprised. well imma look up more songs to add
ontomy phone. btw i didnt see you =( but at least i know why now.
over and out

I hate how leon and cloud always did have to leave,

kitten dear,
could you maybe draw freddy for me?
krueger that is. something that'll say i'll
kill you and come after you in your dreams. you dont
have to just wondering. babye little one

we won 38 to 10 =)
owned much? so now we're 5 and one.
i wish i was with ben now, being here is rather
boring. bet they're having fun. well here i am, laying in my bed
bloging like a bum, father says it looks smart to vote for mccain.
everything i needed to know about politics i learned from easy e =p, fuck em.
goshh this is lamee, i dont know whatto say, i hope this we.... ths weak is so much.
the rally and homecoming and so much. hope it dosent get to me. gotta keep my cool.
we've been texting for a while now. ben wont like pick up his phone =(. butt. over and out

Ohhh and we killedd (penn state) we're 8 and ohhh =p

Morning blog,
I went to bed at around ten
And I got up at fuve. I can't take an other once of sleep. Not one. I mean I slept good but I've been up for two hours and this is boringgg. I could hear mother, she didn't sleep much, the kid kept her upy. Guess he was moving a lot. I just washed my face with cold water so I could wake up more, and so my eyes could stanf looking at the brightness of the screen. Random but the mayor of pittsburgh is 27 years young =p sweet huh? Yesterday I also felt gorgeous. Yesetrday was okayish I guess. We didn't do too much. Jen went to sic flags last night with linds. Guess the mall gang did too. Hope they had fun. That's why jay didn't text back. His left ear is fucked up. Infection from his 3/4 gague ( icant spell but ty has those in his ears. But jay's are wayyy bigger. I like one tat on his neck, I mean he has a few on his neck but I like the one that says "stay beautiful". He has I think he said 22 tats. Don't think he could find areal too good job with em tho =/. All of mine won't be ale to see em. Not unless I took my shirt off. Its 6:59. I wonder if she got my text. Well imma go see what there is to do around here now. Over and out

Darn

I lost my post from last night,
Ipressed the back key on here and got rid of it. Kays well now im listening to I'll be missing you by diddy and faith evans. Its 8:24. Jay drank a lot of coffee last night. It just wasn't worth it.
That wasn't the friday I spent a week waiting for lol, well five days for. Maybe my soon I'll find something to make it at least kinda okay. I just don't know blog. It was a cold night, I got under my new blanket, most of the time I just lay on of of it and im covered with my blue one.wanna know a fact about bryan? Like if I wanna sleep a long time I can't sleep with socks, it bugs me like TONS. Well it was 8;05 when I got up and took a shower, and not its 6:28. Mi tia is gonna pick me up after the gym, why do I feel like I already said this like twice before? Do you still need a dose of me? I could be a "sickness" but if it was that way I don't think you'd wanna take your pills, meds, your choice. I felt gorgeousss yesterday blog. She said like a runway model =). Random but jay was driving all the way in veron last night after we all left. Everone loved his neon green shoes lmao like seven people came up to us to tell him that, laura told me two girls who liked me but I didn't care I just wanted to try to maybe save the night. Oh my..... HAPPYYy BIRTHDAY LAURA!!! She's 18 now. Like no one was at the mall last night and ugh drama. Im still trying to dry my hair. We started together and will end together. But hey? I don't like the word end. Well imma post this from the brick and add from me laptop, its easyler. kays well now this is wayyy easyer.... are those gunshots ihear? nawww. about 170 yards from here i know the house where a stepdad killed "his son" and put ihim in the trunk of his car =( i could point it out if you wanted me too. hahahah i told jay i wanted a tahoe andhe seem happy, he was like if you got the saleen id wanna race you always, i hate knowing someone can go faster than me. well imma just watch tv now, over and out

17/10/8

Today was a huge step for me blog, I didn't feel hate. I was like really okay with him. Like I didn't know what to say but I was okay with him. Strange.... well jen and I are going to the mall soon. Jens gonna oh so love it lmao =p imma have a good time tho. You watch blog I can see us being 8 and one =p cats comin along with ads with us sunday night. Ohh reminds me I gotta call mi tia. Well imma go sey hey to jen, brb. Back well, or not? Imma super sleepy, napp time, later peps

Bryan coming to you live from the place where he lays his heade at night.
Today sucke, bruce had his panies all in a bunch and when i talked to he redhaired
lady she told me the reason by i was written but and the one hour for was stupid
and that i shouldnt worry, that mr. v will fix it. besides that today was okayish. headache tho. sleeping over tia's house saturday she called me today. she already got her tickets to come back home. well imma sippin on a sunny d and listening to trpat. mom knows about us how? =/, how dosent. we kinda talked for a bit during lunch well i havent eaten all day so imma get something. be back soonish. over and out <3 i have hope now =)

Morning blog,
Its 4:50 now. I slept soundly.
Are you okay mama? Sorry I didn't pick up like I said on the phone I fell asleep after heroes. Oh mama? The brownies beat the giants :] *high five* the screen is still to bright of my eyes, so I dimed it so my eyes won't like water up. I can't put my hand into a fist yet. Michelle is coming over today to help me with my scienece projekt. =) I've been speeling it that way eever since. That man wasn't going to let himself become a monster. If you ask me he didn't deserve leval five. I mean yeah his power is so dangerous but he didn't mean it, he couldn't control it, he must have freaked like the rest of the gang. As for hiro I've seemed to have lost most hope in him. To be badass he killed ando

dear blog,
i really liked syler and noah as partners.
it was amazing. thinking of soo muchh =( head is spinning.
this has to be my fight tho.

im nearling the 4ooth post here blog =).
kays well im up and so is motheri wonder what jen is doing today
she was at sma's place yesterday after ccd. the bears, texans, and cowboys games were crazyyyy. five teams won within the last 60 seconds of the game. yesterday o wayched some of the 100 greatest hiphop songs ever and im listening to tha crossroads. joey wouldnt like it but i think he'd like today was a good day by ice cube.its funny cause ice was like nigga i'll shoot you! back in the 90's and how he's like i'll take our kid on a camping trip =p. lame. i wanna see mi tia like saturday and well i know imma sleepover like always. hmmmm i need to look up this car. i love the way it looks but im unsure if its a good car. like one i wont spend too much fixing wayyy too offten. damnnnn the 09 OX cost 55 for starters. nawww i still like the tahoe. maybe the QX is too big.

i now have superman number one

I had the worst dream of them all last night. We were like in war and there was five people in my group five in the bad guy group, they had captured us but one man in my group mangaed to get free and we as a group found our guns and got into a shootout with the bad guys. We killed them but all of us but me were hurt. I was 100% okay but joey was shoy bad within about 60 sec9nds within dying I saw the bullet enter his neck so I was enraged and stood up it was a one on one me vs the guy who had shot my best friend. I jumped from my cover and like jumped sideways so I shot the man twice before I hit the ground. I spent oo much time realizing that I had just killed a man but I didn't care. I spent about 15 seconds looking at the man I had just shot. He was dead. Then I ran to joey we had bleeding bad he graped his pistle and had it under his chin, he said it hurt too bad. That he wanted to pulled the trigger. I begged him not to. Because if he did I won't see him in heaven he finaly droped his gun. I kised his forehead and he smiled and then he left me. My team then came to me and pulled me away from joey. Even tho they were shot but turns out not that bad. I cryed and screamed at them to let me go I wanted to be there with his body. You where one of the ones who pulled me off. I didn't unerstand catalina.

Morning blog.
I just need to put new stuff in my backpack and that's it. Hey maybe this morning I won't be called an asshole. Im not going to the mall tonight blog, im gonna find something else to do maybe. I wonder if shed want to come to ney york with us on 22/10. Three days before homecoming. Who knows maybe she'll wanna come.
History should be good as always but then science =/ and trusses class is alright I guess. For once I did my math hw. I poked my head through her door yesterday and said I did my hw miss and she was happy lol. Im always the first one up here. I wanna cuddle. Blog? Vu and I can't wait for heroes on monday. I just heard someone move. So im not the only one awake now. We don't play this week =/. Its heartbreaking isn't it? I hope all cinci, the ravens and the brownies all lose. Babe knows how it is, those guys are our bitchhs. I can't put my hand into a good fist so im not 100% awake. My tummy is empty. I was skiny in 7th and I didn't notice it. I swear to god I didn't. Maybe that's our problem huh?. She wouldn't know me away, im a part of her now. Well im gonna gp put some socks on, one sec...I just told jen that you might come over and she was like scoree and when I told her that you've never scene a walk to remember she said yo =p that's jen alright. Jen loves ya cat. Whoaa I thought I postefd this last night. School was okayish? Well I kinda don't wanna hangout with the windsor kids. Maybe ill call jay and mall? Ugh idk. Love always, bryan

Do you think anyone out there can hear me? Do the taxi's and the children's screams drown my voice out? Maybe theres someone out there that wished they could find me? Maybe to someone im the perfect boy they write about in their dairies. I'm tired journal. warm the air that i take it.Take the electricity out for a while. Always here, come find me, it could be just like the game we use to play when we were little, hide and seek, just know that when you find me I won't ever be going away. I leave alittle something inside everyone that touches me. And this gift won't ever go away <3

Why are you single?
yeah i am.

Have you ever wished you had a different last name?
nope i love my last name and take pride in it

If a stranger looked in your closet, what would they think?
summer things?

Do people underestimate you?
not too sure to be honest, you tell me

What are you doing tomorrow?
school. mall at night.

Did you sing at all today?
mostly just listen now

Do you miss anyone?
dearly

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
someday, yes

Do you wear a lot of black?
yes? maybe? idk.

Do you have a tan?
yepps.

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
cant. even if its hott i need them

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
i can work with five or six

Last four things you drank?
magno jucie, water, water and um water

Did you wake up happy today?
not too much i was called an asshole righttt when i got up,
but its alright

Whats the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
ahhahaha again? i answered this like wice before.

How old do you look?
i get 16 alot

Whats the last thing you ate?
viniger chips

Are you waiting for something?
yeah

What were you doing at ten last night?
sleepig?

Did you cry today?
nope

Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
nope, not close

Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
some do, its rather compicated

Last person you talked on the phone with?
joey? mom?

Last person you hugged?
hahahahah jen

Did you have a dream last night?
running after dream bryan up a twisty stair case but not last night that was my last dream tho

How many piercings do you have?
none

Who was your last text from?
mother

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
cold or 60's

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?
love yes

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
jess maybe? i only liked one hug today, i was in a crapy mood. everything was sloww

Who do you go to when you need someone to talk to?
i try for catalina, joey, and mi tia

When was the last time you cried?
same as before =X

Have you ever faked sick?
who hasn't?

Have you ever cried during a movie?
to ladder 49 and titanic

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
not sure, i tent to just stare at whats ahead of me. and sometimes i find a focus point and look at it untill i cry lol

Have you ever danced in the rain?
not really?

Have you ever been drunk?
not that close but tipsy

Have you ever tried tried drugs?
no and i dont plan on it either

have you ever had an online realtionship?
lame much?

What is your favourite sport to play?
ummm to play im not so sure

Have you ever made a prank phone call?
a few times? im not good at it tho

Is there anything that you have done that you regret?
lots of things

Who do yo uhave a crush on?
i think maybe crush is too strong of a word?
im not sure. no one i guess

What are you afraid of?
death, being not able to say when it matters.

Are you religious?
alittle

What person do you trust the most?
catalina

What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you?
this guy calling me an emo freak and that no one likes me

What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?
time to fix myself to try to look halfway decent

Do you think you're attractive?
pssttt, sometimes i think im gorgeous but lets keep that between you and i love

Would you ever get a tattoo?
yes sirr

How many piercings do you have?
none, i miss my lip one =(

Who makes you laugh?
joey and mi tio

Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours?
thats atoughy

Have you ever seen a dead body?
a few times, lets not talk about it.

Do you watch or read the news?
not so much anymore

Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves? maybe, it depends on which friend and what the situation is but mostly no if i know i dont mean to hurt them.

Have you ever bitten someone?
good memories. yes

When's your birthday?
23/11

Are you a morning person or a night person?
nightish

Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth?)
tons of times =/

Would you ever pay for a prostititue?
i think im prettyer than that. no i wouldnt

Do you prefer boxers or briefs?
Boxers ;)

Have you ever been in a fistfight?
playfuly but it hurt

Who is your favourite person to talk to?
at the moment maybe ashley, when she gets back to me, shes so busy all the time

Who do you talk to most on the phone?
like no one. use to be joey

Would you ever date someone younger than you? Older than you?
depends how younger. no younger than nine months. maybe older?


Is your best friend a virgin?
nawww, joey is maccin it lmaooo =p
and as for her yes, yes she is

Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them
now i wil, i tell people things because i have no reason to be shy now. imma no named boy in hs

Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago?
deff,I dont think anyone is the same as they were five years ago

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
greatly


Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers?
never, thats a no can do


When was the last time you cried?
=X

What was the last thing you drank?
mango juice


What's your favorite kind of soda?
the purple stuff at barts

Do you have a bad habit?
you could say that


How many times have you eaten sushi?
once (ppermission to puke?)


Do you have any Jordan's or Matt's in your cell phone?
both

How about Ashley's and Amber's?
my sis ashley, we grew up together

Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
With all their heart

Do you have any saved texts?
afew, the ones i loved got deleted along time ago =(

Could you go a day with out eating?
a week

Think of the last time you stayed at someones house, where is that person?
mi tia, she's always busy so im not sure where she is


Are you starting to realize anything?
indeed

What side of a heart do you draw first?
right

Is it worth crying over a guy/girl?
Sometimes

Who was the last thing/person you took a picture with?
raven?

Who's car were you in last other than yours?
the hummer, tia's


Who was the last conversation you had on the phone with?
joey

One thing you're looking forward to?
tomorrow night and the birth of my brother, my birthday,
and alot


Have you ever cried from being so mad?
thats not how i roll

Where is the next place you will travel to?
school

Do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden anywhere?
lmaooo yeah afew here at "home" i can drink with mi tia at her place. better me
drink with family than with friends somewhere i could get in problems for.


What are you doing tomorrow?
School, mall

Last person you commented?
im never on myspaoce so idk

Last person you saw other than your family?
jess

What did you think about when you first woke up?
Time to try to get myself looking halfway decent

What are you going to do after this?
watch tv with jen?
go back to my room and listen to music?

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i hope it isnt

Do you want to be in a relationship?
thats a roughy, not sure that im ready now

Do you want kids?
two or three?

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yea i do


Did you go out or stay in last night?
Stay in

Are you a jealous person?
not gonna lie. i am. well not stuff wise. people wise.


Would you leave the one you love for the hottest person in the world?
Never. End of story.

In the past three days have you been rejected?
Ha! you wouldnt know the half of it. but yes, yes i have.


Regret anything?
im human so yup

Last book you read?
eclipce


Are you watching tv?
not right now right now


You had one day to live would you stay home?
nopes, try to see as much as i can? or spend it with someone who cares

What friend do you tell the most to?
joey, catalina, jason

What are you currently doing?
this and listening to better days by the goo goo dolls

If you could do something differently, would you go back?
you betcha


Are you sarcastic?
at times

Would you move to another country to be with the one you love?
lets leave here and move to london dear <3

Dear blog,
Is there something I don't know? I don't want to know journal, I don't. I don't. Hey I caled this journal. I didn't mean to. Lessons was okay today. I wonder how the mall night will be. I'll be there soon. Im getting up at five tomorrow. From here I can hear heaven. Now im just here in my bed. He can be trusted. I don't want to be a nag on jay so I won't text him today. What if I need him? Naw I won't. I can be big. This song isn't helping much. Not even a little.... not even at all. I remember. They can't touch what's in my mind. Bryan agaist the world again?
Round two? *tips hat and walks away*

So I hear im not coming to lunch tomorrow. I didn't know I had plans to be somewhere else. I'l come but just lay my head down and listen to music. Plus if I wanna its the only time I can blog from here without someone saying something. Brad just sat down. Im not in the mood for much. Im listening to never too late. Tomorrow night should be good. Haha. I don't really know what to do like for tomorrow.I have my vlub today. She thought I was tired. Guess im just like outside myself and not liking what I see. Maybe I could change it. I have truss's class next. My favorite class. Hi joey. He's looking over at what im wrting. Imma be at lunch. Wes is gonna come. he's sitting two seats away from me. Everyone seems happy. Smiling. Im just kinda hey. Seeing where my thought end up. Listening to aiden reminds me of dead silance. Joey is wearing an teen hunger force that I've never scene him wear before. I say scene because of andy. We hardy talk anymore. My 11th I think illl be giving the new ones rides home lol. I'll be 17th. Old as hell. Love awlays. Bryan

Dear blog,
Islept soundly.
I hope you did to em but I know what it feels like =/.
Im listening to endless dark.
Ummm I guess chandlyr is gonna be in asian club for just this one meet?this sound be good. Haha. Kays now im listening to listen to your heart. The sloww one. Makes me feel like down to earth. I don't like bruce's class anymore. Buts its the funnyest one. We're cutting steel now im class. Mistakes will be harder to get rid of on it. Its 6:36 and I still have to pick out what to wear =/ I hate doing that. Well I gotta run. Over and out

cause when I was low you were there for me, never left me alone cause ya cared for me. That's my angel she's there for me. If not in body always in the wind

Matt drives the red civic.
that girl and that tall guy bry and I snuck in where so stoned =/. She was afriad cause she thought we couldn't get them in and she had a lot on her. Well math was great I flew by the work. Listening to my slow jamz. Well imma eat and stay home for once. Over and out

Dear blog,
Last night was soo cold =/
Not even being I ball helped much. I couldn't find me blue blanket. I think mother said she took it to get it washed but I woke like every hour. =/.

Dear journal,
I guess today is an other day of barts. Sorta don't wanna but I have nothing else to do. Im here at the book place in town. Yawning every ew minuites because im listening to where'd you go.
Makes me sleepy. Makes me feel at peace. I know what I want. I could go to bed right now. I know what matters.

I just want something to be soild again. For things to start making sense.... for just this once journal. Just this once... just once. *lays his head on his pillow and tells himself to try his hardest to sleep* im loved no matter what (13) Always

Game over.
Get a fucking grip you
Son of a bitchh.

What the fuck?
Why does this happen to me?

Fuck guess who's back.
Fuck it blog. guess I was right. When I got home soon bammm it hit me. Just five more days blog. There's no reason to me a soft bitch anymore. Ughhh. I didn't want this to happen. Why can't I be normal again?. Yesterday I spazed. I didn't mean for that to happen so soon. Guess im putting a little too much on her too soon. That's why im an asshole during the week. It gets me through the day. We're on our way to drop off the guy's cheaks. Later

ha.

Fuck. Droped call. Shoulda stayed with at&t. Im not sure what to do. I think it may be worth the fight. But do I understand? He wouldn't? He knew. Ughh. This sucks. Maybe on 11th. Cool. Texts. Im freezingggggg. Now I see. Its worth it. Our gust left about five ago. Those fries made me sick. Drinking made it better tho. Blog? Anytime I say imma come here remind me that there's an 90% imma stay the night lol. It always happens. Cold nights too. =] I fell asleep with help tho it was nice. Hmmmm, no wolf..... strange. But maybe its because im with family. Cause in my room sometimes I feel it. Joey says I should "clean out my closet". But I don't want to. Blog? I liked last night tonnnsss. I wonder what we're gonna do when we get home. We? I*. Tio many changed the handlebars on his harley. this week will be cold. Score :]. Still thinking of well yea. I could become that bryan. Lets make the tops 12. That's tons tho. Plus mother can't see them. I love my hat. Love a few people. Objects.well now imma go. Over and out. If you wanna talk before he comes back text the brick or go on aim

Guess im going with mi tia today. Im listening to blue october. They're amazing. The hate me that I have is long. Im laying in mi tia's sun room. The trees look so pretty. We drove past her house. The pt and volvo where there. That's half of her name. Thinking of last night. I hope this week fly's back quickkkkkk. I keep spacing out. I just wonder blog.... later

Dear blog,
This pittsburgh boy
Dosent now what to do.
I wanna hangout with people but I like can't. Not windsor kids at least.... dear blog, I just got a plate full of brownies from joey. The homewrecker was there so joe got em for me lol. Wouldn't want wolfboy to come out now would we? Their yummy =) later

This feels nice.
Being normal for once.
No anger, no wanting to jump at people's throats. Just bryan. My feet are cold =/ jen stayed the night at sam's. Father and I are gonna go somewhere when he gets back. Im looking at the tummbler. Im laying on my bed. Thinking of last night. He comes back in four days. Some of us where happy about it. Im on the fence. I like the way my hair feels. I liked truss's class yesterday but when do I not? =). I would call joe to come see a movie or something but I bet he's at his dads. Kitten? Could I still be your bestfriend? I promise to go to school no matter how late the game is tomorrow. You still read this? I wish I know blog. I wish I did. I wish. She said I said the same thing a few times before I sleep asleep. The time she left a note but when I woke she wasn't there =/. Wonder if she remembers. Well imma go to mother's room and watch tv or something. Later folks <3

I shook him for a while.
Blog? Why am I such an asshole these days? Is it called being strong? But blog I rather be soft and sweet than be the person I am in school. The idea of the wolf gets be through the day tho. I don't really know if I could last without him. Todays class was okay. On tuesday we have a half day. Savanah isn't coming with so that'll make things a little less akward. Its cold now blog. It is. I get to see her today, like for four hours. I've been looking forward to it. Blog? I don't want to fall for anyone. Maybe just play the field? Im not sure blog. Wes sat at my table today. I wonder what where I'll end up on next friday's lunch. I think I'll just go to study hall or something? Not sure if I'll even stay for it. Well now im going to help mother out if I want to get out of here by the set time. Over and out. Great. Today isn't feeling as good as I thought. Fuck this. We're on our way to get jess. Im picturing myself driving at 140 into a wall. Would suck if I didn't die. I could beat john's dad's speeding ticket on a motorcycle. I'd paint mine flat black. Surprise surprise. Picturing the bryan from my dreams. Jess is in now. I think erica is there by now. Great a love song.... im so sick of love songs, so sad and slow.... but why can't I turn off my raido? Neo said it right. The trees look pretty blog. On my street the first three home's trees remind me of a stop light. Because of the colors of the leaves on the trees. Cross yor fingers and hope I feel happy today blog. Please? Later

I can't wait to see her!! This fucking sucks. Whoa wes is setting at my table. Hahahaha he's funny =) lunch today was the best one I've had. Pokemon stickers huh? I know what I want now blog. Can't shake my old post. This is it, my finale fuck you

I can't wait to see her!! This fucking sucks. Whoa wes is setting at my table. Hahahaha he's funny =) lunch today was the best one I've had. Pokemon stickers huh? I know what I want now blog. Can't shake my old post. This is it, my finale fuck you

i have come here
just to inform you...
I'm noy sorry,
For what i'll do.
i have no guilt
nor shame,
for leaving you
to your life game.
life holds nothing...
nothing for me.
no purpose.
only misery.
i'm in debt.
i'm in pain.
i cry, knowing
i'm not sane.
cause I see me dead.
a grewsome scene.
my knife in my throat.
the bloodiest of dreams.
She'll will find me.
she'll call the police.
but I'll be long gone,
still wishing for peace.

no one gives a fuck.
no one will care,
while at my corpse,
they'll stare.
just another one.
another fucked up kid.
you're better off
with what I did.
i went quiet.
i went alone.
i went to find
a new home.
i'm with the others.
those like me.
helpless, lost, dead...
gathered alone in our misery.

i know.
i'm going to hell.
but it's probably
just as well.
i loved you.
i just don't know
what else I can do.
i'm sick of hurting.
i'm sick of crying.
i'm sick of all the
pieces of me dieing.

i'd feel empty
if not for the rage.
if not for all this hate
pushing me to this stage.

all of you.
you could see.
you all knew what
was happening to me.
you watched me.
losing my mind.
so all you fucks...
leave your jokes behind.
you're all responsible.
you could have stopped this.
but you never cared.
you all wanted this.

my time has come.
this is what I need to do.
i just needed to leave
something for all of you.
i hope you enjoy this.
i wrote it just for you.
this is it.
My final fuck you

cool huh?

Superman's home planet Krypton was destroyed, but his house on Earth will live on thanks to loyal fans and an online auction that raised $100,000 to restore the rotting home where the Man of Steel was created.

Everything from original artwork to a role on the hit television show "Heroes" was sold in the month-long auction, which ended on Tuesday, to save the dilapidated Cleveland, Ohio, house where Superman was dreamed up by writer Jerry Siegel and artist Joe Shuster more than 70 years ago.

"This was easily the most humbling spectacular project I've ever been part of, and showed just how much people care about this character and why today Superman still matters," said novelist Brad Meltzer, who organized the auction.

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Meltzer, who discovered the deteriorating house while researching a novel, said at first he wasn't sure people would care about restoring the red-and-blue house where the superhero who wears the red-and-blue suit was dreamed up in 1932.

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"The house where Google was created is saved. The farm where Hewlett-Packard was founded is preserved. We protected the house where Dr. Seuss lived, where Elvis lived," noted Meltzer. "So the idea that Superman's house was just rotting away struck everyone as inherently wrong."

Meltzer, who offered the naming rights to a character in his next novel as part of the auction, takes no credit for saving the home, saying loyal fans of the comic book hero came to Superman's rescue.

"We're all Clark Kent. We all know what it is like to be boring and ordinary and we all want to be able to rip open our shirt and do something beyond ourselves. That's what happened here. Ordinary people made a difference."

(Reporting by Andrea Hopkins; Editing by Bob Tourtellotte

hey blog,
today like sucked.
truss had to have a ppt so he left us with a sub.
damn i didnt know riggins was a freshman. he stayed back
three times. thats dead pathetic. he'll be seventeen soon.
him, the kid that says you feel me and earnest left lol. when the sub
signed riggin's pass we told he he wouldnt be coming back. on monday he
wanted to go to in school and truss told sent him to his vp to try to work that out
and guess where he didnt go? to his vp. he walked to mcdonalds instead, one of our guards went there to get a bite and saw him there. he needs to get this shit together. so leah is a wolf huh? like me. i was surprised. damn tomorrow is an A day. today is ashley's birthday. i didnt see her today. i hope her stress didnt get to her. i cant wait for the bell on friday. change out the things in wearing, and get ready for a sweet night. im listening to fabulous. joey's trail is on tuesday. i think i looked like shit today. i wish could have watched heroes. maybe i'll just wait untill it comes out on dvd. who knows. i dont know much anymore. things just happen. just like heath said. shit happens when you plan things. you cound get disapointed. im going over to lynn's place soon. then maybe the gym. as much as i like dont like going i like what i see in the morning. blog? read my mind? parkman could. oh reminds me i finished season one when i got home. my shirt sparked a huge class convo about 90's cartoons =). if i could make any three cars on my shelf real i'd make the 08 shelby, gallardo, and i think the 68 shelby. my room feels funny. kay well i have to go now. over and out