Greetings my readers,
I guess bonnington died (joey's japanese fighting fish... beta) joey is about five inche's away from my right leg ironing a logo onto his shirt. He already did four shirts? Best friends? Kay..... well the high school meeting was cool? Boring tho. I got a football thingy, lets see if I can cut it. Brandon got dad's sandles!! Ahahahah. He says he uses it all the time. He's a snowboarder, mountian do sponcers him. Pretty sweet huh? Nightwing and robin..... I wanna say so much about the comic but she hasn't read it yet. Me mate.my left foot is waking up, feels like there's a trillion fucking knifes in it. I wonder if I'll see her. Brandom makes me laugh. Its men's time. Hey looks like I forgot to post this hours ago.... jessy.... im lost. Love my girl. Later bitchs =p

she's right

She was there,
Took care of us.
I won't say more.
Too many questions babe?
Naw, well im in the forest somewhere. She calls me son. Well later <3 happy eight months. I hope to see ya

Yo puedo vivir sin aire

Today was a real eye opener, well this this my day 26/5/8. We loaded up the quads and went to mi tio's manny's. We ride and ate. My cousins came over and stuff. I made a little fire next to where my uncle was making the fire, so he promised we'd have a bonfire when the night grew old. My cousin, jen and I went to stop and shop when it was about sunset to get some fireworks, I talked to my partner for a short while but she was having laptop problems :/. She said something about throw a car over a bringe. Well the fire works were cool. I rode for about an hour alone. I saw the groundhog. Well when we made the bonfire. We talked about lots of things but we ended up talking about home and family. Well if you didn't know my tia's father died in a fire, he died a hero though. He saved his wife. When he opened the door he pushed her on the floor and told her to cover her face but the sudden burst of oxygen got him down, he hit the floor and dead of a heartattack. So really he didn't die from the burns, a heartattack. This happened in their house in new mexico. He had bulit the house with his own two hands. Well he never rold he that he loved her, but he like knew he was going to die, he grabed her hand and told her that he loved her, told her how great it turned out that they lasted and grew old with one an other. He had been in the hopital for a while before the fire, he didn't want to die in the hospital. Tio manny says after grandma died other people's deaths don't really hit him. The one of his mother hit him, and hit him hard. My dad and uncle use to fall asleep in grandpa's coat because it smelled like him. They were like cool it smells like dad and they'd end up cuddling with it and thus falling asleep. mi tia says its the young and stron that die first, that it isn't fair. They talked about that they are getting old and how will I speek of them to our kids and my kid's kid's. I couldn't take it, I cryed, and cryed, I even went into the house. Jen soon followed, she says she's glad they noticed my tears before the saw hers. My uncle came to get me since jen left me. He said "if you think im gonna die soon you'r crazy" (in spanish of coarse) then he huged me. The bonfire lasted three hours I think. Its almost one in the morning. My cloths smell of smoke big time. Hey babe? For how much longer can I be you for? I thought of you lot, that took away from the speed. Its nothing be being with you now. I've grown so much use to you, your scent, I know what means what in your eyes, I just feel ever so close. Correct me if im wrong but I feel like im vary well inside of you. I feel right. Like you. Baby, I love you. Well if im gonna see you tomorrow I'll need some rest. Quads? You can come. And to my readers I bid you a fair night. And to you my fine lady, *kisses your hand* I'll be seeing you tomorrow 13 Catalina and bryan <3

You know you are in love when you see the world is her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in the world

Okay lets get this straight

Fuck what all you people say, she loves me and she wouldn't do me like that. Over and out. Racing. Cell it if you must reach me

Is that the way it really is mother?

It made me cry a single tear, little girl in there sundress dancing and singing? its 8;38 and the first thing I have is a popicle. I stayed up late. I can hear a helicopter go over my house. My toy on is under my bed. There were john's and tims and brets? My teeth are cold. Im singing softy, untill tomorrow. Im the only one up. Wait I sec people, gotta get a purple one.jason and that girl talked and yelled an one an other for the longest time, jason. It was better without john, ryan, megam and dyllan. Remind me that's there's a knife by the right side of my bed, wouldn't wanna step on that. No socks. And iwas right. About my dream. Tell you brets and john's that they are lucky. Promise? I would talk about batman and son but I want you to read it first. Ahhhhh....... um. Okay. That's went by. Now what? I can hear a car shifting into gear. I bet you can hear the trains in town real loud huh? I don't think I am going to the durby. I need to ask if its okay if I go with jason. But I believe I already know the answer... baby? I........ you can read that. You know me. Well imma read knightfall (its huge) im only five without you

i look prettyy damn cute right now if i do say so myself =D
What are kitten's orders today? i wanna see youu

made me think....

A baby asked God, 'They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?' God said, 'Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.' The child further inquired, 'But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.' God said, 'Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy.' Again the child asked, 'And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?' God said, 'Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience a nd ca r e, your angel will teach you how to speak.' 'And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?' God said, 'Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray..' 'Who will protect me?' God said, 'Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life.' 'But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.' God said, 'Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you.' At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, 'God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name.' God said, 'You will simply call her, 'Mom.'

She demands a hug or she wont take the picture down...
yeah about that, keep it up then

X

movies

Bryan here, ace.... ace um fag. Joey is mad at me and my mind is somewhere in fucking japan. Thanks uni..... ellooo kityyyy <33333 ummm. Im thinking of vermillion part two. Heart just sank. Bite me wasn't a goood idea. I don't know how far this will go. The bullet. My unit. See john I could cry right about now. I swear. Im no fun.. Sorry. Dad's car says 10:34. Mr.Mckay looks focused. The highway is like clear. I'd hall ass if I could down this. Honda. Is what I see. My hair sucks. I like this feeling. I feel so lost. We just droped off emily. Dad is super cool. I wish I could walk down these roads. I like to write in the moment. Two dads. I think dad is losttt. He said alright. I feel ike im in a freddy movie. Is he gonna come for me? The filed looks cool. I can hear his truck still. What dad does seems cool. Now that is the question.who knows. Yeah if it does I won't let anyone know that im on the team. I'll find my jersey and everything. 13. Its like my 23. Batman. The big bad bat. You had to ask the night question. Three weeks I believe. Home. I feel 47. For tomorrow I will search. Dogtags. This the the last blog for a short while. A star. I could be. 13. Again. 12:09 plus the one from the date. Im lame. Is that what will become of me? It dosent have to be. I don't know. Im listening to sing for the moment. Im looking for the tale within the pictures. Must I try to do this. Trying not to is going agaist my nature. I think. Maybe it will turn out that way. Its in the hands of fate. Its nine from one am. Make something out of me. Im not much but I can do things. I sometimes tell myself I know nothing to think more. To go deeper into what my eyes lets me see. Into what my ears let me hear. I was going up the stairs. All lights off. I triped. I was scared. Like I heavent felt that kind of scared since I was a boy. I hit the painting too. I was lost within it. It was the darkest black I've seen in a hell of a long time. But then I managed to find the bathroom to turn on the light. leaders must hide their fear so ah. I am sorry my dear friends. I bid you farewell

7/5/8

Just threw up a little.
Hey people, how was your days? Mine? Was was fine I guess. Im gonna try real hard not to show up at school tomorrow. I forgot to ask for my journal. Im thinking of just having it for me and give it back to you when im done. Only 1/3 of it left. I guess that boy heard that we broke up because of "what happened in philly" he thought we also lost our title of best couple because of the break up. I want to go somewhere far. Don't tell me where, just give me a ticket and I won't ask questions. Promise. Ohh hey lizzy, how's it hanging? Wow I never say that. Well how's life? I guess magda got her permit. Cool. My thought and chopy and I don't know what to think. He told the world how he felt with the sound of a gat. Makes me think. Hey look, that wasn't too hard for me. 7316 10 11 16, I got those numbers from the date and time. May 7th, 3:16. I guess im looking for the number 23. The suicide blonde. Sherry. I want to, but I can't, I promised. She smiled sometimes when I saw. Why smile? I don't think she would if I did. But I want to keep my promise. If you ever break it then I might go all out on myself. Take me home. Please. Mrs. B showed our class pictures from philly. Fuck philly. They can take their eagles and shove em up there asses!! right lizzy? (If you don't know lizzy loves the steelers too) steelers pal? Idk. Im a loser. Jen told me this is the last meeting? But who will I talk to then? I feel like I keep somthing to myself that don't tell a soul. My true inner thoughts. But they aren't what I want to think but its what might happen. Im not sure. I can shut up. That's all? No one good is on aim. Jen and mother left somewhere. I shall listen to music. Yeah I will. well what now people? i wish ville would stop smoking. three packs a day is wayy too much. gab? cat? <3

Take 13

Greetings people,
This is bryan coming to you live from under the sheets, haha. I turned the ac on in my room. I like sleeping in the cold. Did ya finish up the wonder woman comic? Perez says that the joker action figure is sold out all over ny. Sweet huh? Imma look for batman things at toy stores now. Yes people I like batman. (You'd know that if you read my blogg =p) my right eye lid feels funny? Its almost 11 now (10:50) imma be all fucked up tomorrow :/ I have yet to pick what imma wear. Kitty wasn't asleep :/ I was. I look over at my shoes and I forgot to put the other pairs in me room. Looks like joey broke up with amber to get that girl back.ahhh its colddd in here, imma have to curl up well in my covers. Glasses? I just put em on. Clack here. Ha wish. Hey wasn't it fucked up how he made himself look like conner? And she went towards him, said no way.... your dead. That was a cheap shot. Superboy. See now imma ace reporter, I can hear mother coming of the stairs. Sleeping is lonely, and now its cold. So cold and lonely :/ someday? Inext time ya see lia ask her what she thinks of? I wanna know? Now im thinking of the dance where you rested you head on me leg and the crew were around, sitting around. Emily got back to me today, buts its all kay now. Your words are gold to me. *yawn* nooo that was nott a yawn. I am fully awake! Could you tell that imma lieing? Im beattttt. But I wanna blog. I guess obama won north carolina. I wonder who will win. What's dad do? I wanna do something with me hands for a job when im older, and that makes money. Ha dad could take me under his wing. Now im thinking of when peter "died". Clair just had to take out that sharp piece of glass from his head and he came back to life. Since she is his niece they share the same blood, peter can take other peoples powers, will not take but he can do the same if he touches the person. Siler has to eat the person's brian to do the same. When they fought it was awesomeeeee. I can see mckay written on my wrist. Ah, baby? Imma sleep. Night. <3 xoxo 13

whoaaaaa i wantttt ittttttt

LEGO Batman - The Batmobile: Ultimate Collectors' Edition

john left switchfoot? no way.
wake up and see the daseys bry.
now i see <3 imma try to keep this, make it stay little one

you shoulda taken it from me,
after i saw your note i thought damn :/

This must be how john felt when he had to be trained all the way from step one ;/
cut among the dotted line kids. joey's mom, she was like yeah i sa3w john with these two girls holding hands walking to barts? well imma lisening to stay with you. no i will not cry. i wont... this reminds me of heroes, how to stop an exploding man. well imma boy so yea. i guess jaki is gonna give alex the boot soon. i want more of them, someday. someday... wanna run away? i'll cover up our tracks well, we cal leave this silly old town and run forever. my ears are ringing. i feel stupid, i was looking for my school stuff and i couldnt find them, turns out they were two and a half feet away from my right foot. these eyes dont work well. sac says its a tuffy ;( would you like what i wrote in that one day? isnt much of a novel. its like five or six pages. feel like they were idk. cant help but to think of what brad said, cant help but to think of what i heard. forgive me. that reminded me of when alfred told master bruce that his supper was ready and he stood there, looking at the window, he said vary well and bruce said it was all his flaut, that is he wouldnt have been scard that.... well his parents would still alive. math homework ;/ later

"When super villians want to scare eachother, they sit around and tell stories about the Joker."

It was all a dream

Like big said. My dream has rather strange, it was like a black and white movie from the 30's. I still can't shake the feeling of lonilness. I feel like everyone left and that it might take a little time for them to come close again, well if they weren't close then they won't get to where they were before. Im thinking of when alfred put on the suit backwards. Im listening to somewhere in between. She saw me cry.... thinking of that. John's high? Not high high I guess. I told em I could get him more if he likes. I haven seen my drugies in forever. John seems like a different person. I heavent heard from tyler in days. I just pinched my cheek to make sure that im here, real. Im thinking of franks german sheps, I think they weigh more than you and gaby. Big dogies. Im thinking of when I overdosed on my stuff, it didn't take too long for it to effect me, but goddamn that sucked soo fuckinggg much. I still have the stuff. Sing with me. Sing....

words

I feel like my words are worthless, like they aren't even worth the breath used to say them. I feel alone, empty, useless. Loss me somewhere. I am tired, but I can not sleep. I can't. I have not gotten more than eight hours of sleep within the last two days. Real sleep. I feel relaxed. I can feel the blood pumping into my arms.ha, I just got tyler's text.I will read over hush. Will you even read this? I adore you, I love you. Kay catalina? <3 13 now I see clear

Bear blog

This must be how a soilder feels, being away from his life back home. So first I could relate to the drug addict and now a soilder. How can I? Im just a silly middle school boy, nothing more, and well maybe less. Can someone thicken my air, make it so I can inhale it. I swear I'll return the favor. Emily never got back to me, was surprised but its okay. Really. In these last weeks days I've gotten to learn how that bryan is. The one that needs no one. I think it hurts him to have no one to turn to. He has too much pride to cry, too much that he can't shallow it. I feel like I can put myself into people's shoes well. Im trying to put myself in harvey's shoes. What I heard can't be true right? No.... I keep fliping my coin. In my mind I've lined one all my sides, I've taken a shot at them and see what they do, I looked one straight in the eyes, turned my back to him and just when he could breath I punched him in the gut. He fell. I need stronger, this one guy said I take harder shit from him than you. So I punched his jaw, it turned his head sideways, then he punched me too. Spat out the blood and a tooth, laughed. Proud? I guess I do have a back bone. I can be soft but where has that gotten me? Many places but in the real world the weak can't survive right? I want to cry but I just can't. Today I went to franks, chris made me laugh so hard that my tummy hurt. =). I miss my girls. You guys know that right? I love you both, but there's one only that wins me over. That is you, miss mckay. (Catalina) I have watched so much batamn that if you were to look into these eyes's you'd see bats. Reminds me of when dr. Strange used that tthing to go into bruce's mind, he saw the death of the waynes, and saw a young boy fall through the ground, falling, into a cave, the sight of bats. He knew he was batman. I guess I won't be getting a call. Im not going to lie, I am some what disapointed. I heard more of your voice when I was talking to john. Wait you called me, or did I call you? I didn't hear your goodbye so I kept talking untill my phone told me..... I felt stupid, crushed. The time and date at this moment add up to 23. Ha. I feel like a hardend person, crush this shell. "If I knew where to look to find happiness, I'd gather my things and more next to it" im scared. Yet I feel fearless. Tell me what I want, tell me what I need. Please. Now its ten. I just looked away from my screen. Darkness. It ate everything. I couldnt see. My words seem worthless. Anyone out there? Since when am I bryan. Bryan, I don't like this name. I took on my name because It got harder and harder to answer to a name that wasn't mine. I lost him. I sound crazy. Dear god, help me. I can't let this happen to me again, I didn't see a thing, I swear! But I did. It scared the living hell out of me. If I start acting funny.... you might want to think of someone else. Last time I couldn't handle it. I had to leave it all behind. Maybe not this time around. Maybe I can fight it, not get eaten. Maybe, hope. Everyone just longed on. I don't want to talk to a soul. Well im talking to amy. My girl is asleep, in her own bed for the first time in days. Im burning up under these covers. My heart is racing. Hold me. No, I can't handle myself, may I hold you? That I can handle. Ladies and gents, it was lovley talking to you, but I must go, duty calls..... duty calls

ya know theres a town in arizona called catalina?

lets see if i could make myself so dull that she would miss me even when im at school? like i am now, because of philly

a need a dose injected straight into my vains

i feel like a drug addict that wasnt used in a while!!!!!
baby im dieing over here. *sigh* bye people

ohh i need this, my dear lady, dance with me *goes on one knee, kisses hand, takes hold of her waist*

Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here
That I don't understand

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

Contempt loves the silence
It thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils
That strangle the heart

They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
No, I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
Angel sweet
Love of my life
O, I need this

Do you remember the way
That you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness
I loved and adored?

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
No, I don't need them

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
The angel sweet
Love of my life
I need this

Is it dark enough?
Can you see me?
Do you want me?
Can you reach me?
Or I'm leaving

You better shut your mouth
Hold your breath
Kiss me now you'll catch my death
O, I mean it

ha! i do get respect atfer all,
the pizza dude calls me sir. hey its something right?
hahahahaha im a loserrr, over and out

um hey?
talk? hows it hanging?

true love nerer dies, i've learned that no matter what it will work out <3

3:17, sleep? what sleep

I got a call at 11:34, left a voice mail. It said how you two did something on a bus? And flirt. Naw?, yes naw. Once again it sucks to hear, this sucks more tho, she went into detail.... I would call you em but when I do I get no answer. Now I feel even more alone, im typing this from my phone. I got your voice tho hun. Would you see why this kinda gets to me? Like what if you had people in your eye telling you how I flirt with some girl and go as far as detail? I don't care what they say. People. Reminds me when I hit my face on the door.... ha, this song, the name of it triggered something in me. I hated this word, couldn't stand its meaning. A scar. A side of me is hurt, it dosent want to hear that an other "friend" might stab me again. It dosent know what to believe. I love you, I'll tend to this part of me. Emily? No, it'd be no one. Don't even think you like me vary much. Your the only person that could help me? I just really wish I could talk to you. But even gaby could tell me that you love me and would never. Sorry again gab, imma not going to school again today. But when I found all those sweet batamn videos I thought "gabyy! We've hit the jackpot!!!" pictured us seeing em, how much ya like batman? You should use your blog. I left links to the guy on mine. Have kitten show you. I think you'll like em tons. You'll get to see how terry got the suit and bruce's heart attak. I think imma watch the sunrise. Yeah I will. Alfred, hush, catwoman said she'd rip his eyes out. I got worryed for alfred, even kinda mad? I was like you will not lay a finger on that man! Yeah im lame. From what it looks like in the comics, tim never lost his mind. In the books he is robin the teen wonder.better than jason? Bruce said jason saw being robin as a game, a trill, and maybe that's what got him killed. I wish I could see what bruce has been through. I mean I know but his soul, he must be crush. What gives him the strengh to put on the suit everynight? To protect the innocent, strike down those who pray on the fearful. I could go on and on but damn bruce, he is a true hero. Better than kent, kent hasn't been through half the things you have. What you think cat? I mean he is the last of his kind and this and that but yeah. Bruce has lost so much. So has kent, wife, son, planet. Idk, bruce is a normal man, shows us that you don't need powers to me a true hero, fighter. Bruce had his spine broken and shot so many times, he somehow comes back, that's the beauty of comics, no matter what ya come back. Sorry folks, I could drag on for days so I bid you good morning? I mean it is 4:06 am. Idk w/e. Night

so first i heard, she was all over john, pickel time? touching?
something on the bus? she wouldnt... i trust you. i cant sleep. its alomost five am, the sun will rise soon. just messaged emily. im listening to why. im cold to the touch. goosebumbs.soon i'll see the light of day.i wont be going to school tomorrow. i guess my post from my phone didnt post yet? lets talk curtrent events people, i gotta get my mind off this, ironman came out today, will it will? its still early, the myspace layout is ironman. Venezuela: 12 cents for a gallon of gas. thats crazyyy huh? cheep as hell, but so is this. Sierra Leone: $18.42 per gallon. the uk price is ba dtoo. United Kingdom: $8.38 per gallon. this imma remember when my kids are here, kids, someday. ah im so fucking cold. imma watch batman beyond to lose myself a tad. ahahaha the sex jokes, i catch on now. in bb he has like wanna ride? she said you love your car morew than you do me. and he said who said anything about a car? these jokes good for kids? naw. i guess they knew kids wouldnt catch on. gosh the kid on episode four is strange. i wonder what your thinking of cat. well imma watch more. i like terry, he thinks like us. =D the sky isgetting a darkish lighter blue! now its slighter. i see a great difference now. this is wondeful! beautiful. everything in gotham says wayne, bruce must be loadedddddd. the sky is now gray. jen will be getting up soon. my goosebumbs are still all over my body.byt six i think the sun will be up. i just went into my room to get something warm. the light creeped in through the window shades. i think by eight i'll go to sleep. babe i miss you so much =( im only < without you. i just put lotton on. that too much details? kay by 6:20 it'll be up. ahhh i want so much moree. the sky is now a mix of white,gray and with a hint of blue. ha, batman rips! ya think so? lets get some ice cream, my treat. sweet. wait whats the catch? rain in the forecast? the blue has overtaken the gray. i havent cracked anything for days. when ya think i ca see my other self. missing you =( well imma go now. but i will still watch the sunrise

Reminds me of you <3

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Iis harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

The Terror Beyond

was great, i thought it was cool how his tomb ston4e said "solomon grundy, born on a monday" is kept true from its old name. i love learning =)

Solomon Grundy,
Born on a Monday,
Christened on Tuesday,
Married on Wednesday,
Took ill on Thursday,
Grew worse on Friday,
Died on Saturday,
Buried on Sunday.
That was the end of
Solomon Grundy.

we have came a long way from sticks and stones

"tell me why catalina was all over john"

sucks to hear things like that but w/e, i trust you.
i didnt go to school today, sleep was impossible.
im listening to ryan, brb. kay i just got all pretty. well my "pretty"
i cant help but to think of this one line

Friends are people that you think are your friends
But they really your enemies, with secret indentities
and disguises, to hide they true colors
So just when you think you close enough to be brothers
they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin

gaby is gonna be all alone today :/ sorry gab.
now im singing to ryan again. im sooo cold :/ today will be a long day. kay people will imma look things up, over and out i guess