i saw and idk i walked face first into the locker room door.
amy says not to worry at all, i'll try amy. promise. mt arms are a wee bit sore from
lifting. i like it tho. lets see whats on my mind, well tonight is the movies, i hope i found lose myself. keep me in reality please, dont let me think, keep me on my toes. i was gonna give you what i wrote but if you noticed a left in first. give john a hug for me. dyllan, he dosent seem like a friend anymore. who does? i feel like ive begun to push people away. i must not tho. the yheart will go away and come back next winter. i just spazed a little because my mexico braclet wasnt there. i think i can wear the other on my ankle if i wanted. i wonder if she missed me, a little? well she has friends to kepp her smile on. last year i justed this alot? now i dont? hey lizzy do still use this? read this? lynn is in china, she comes back tomorrow. this summer i wAnt to before stronger, slimer. i like make up, i think imma put some on today, well tonight. you dont like it? day, i like it when its darker, i can already feel that i wont be getting much sleep, for the week. i want to see the sunrise. ha i just pictured myself like all muscle and tough (bodywise) and still being soft inside. that a good combo? that reminds me i was gonna leave you a note that said i left, and goodbye but i forgot your combo, plus mr. joe opened my locker for me so he'd be like why you wanna go down those halls? lets see if you can take a hint. that reminds me of when one time i got use to you waiting after gym and i went there, walked with my head down and when i looked up you werent there, i stood there for a while, i like like so late to class. i guess you walked with john. i look for him in the halls now because your always there. no. i wont cry. in 20 the 7th period bell will ring. today was mr.g's last day. i wish i could have stayed to see the movie in la. my heart was beating so fast, it was different, then it slowed down so much, thats why i like went home really. gotham, the city that lays within my dreams. i like it when i dream. it's like watching a batman episode. is it childish to still watch the jl and batman? but im a kid? well not so much? but i can do alot.if my memorie serves me well when lia and i were watching the band i looked over to mom and she has like looks all tat time and she was smiling. im trying to burn time untill you go on aim. still need a ride? lets go deeper into my mind, i can see that part of me, he's bouncing off the walls saying cat. now i just pictured all t he different parts of me in cells, in arkham. batman, bruce wayne. turn of the heat please. ha, that reminds me of him, yesterday. im thinking of the movie 23. with jim carrey. i can see a bright future ahead of me, even if you wetre to leave i'd have to mend my heart, it'll take a long while but i must push forward. i must think of a possible future, where maybe i can have a family, give them all they want. im thinking of when i kissed gaby and told her to give that kiss to you. 10 more and your out. but you like get home at 3:16ish? do i sound creepy? forgive me. its really warm outside. i miss el paso, mexico, its so hot you can like see the heat? or at least y ou see something in the air. you can hear the snake sound too. do you know what i mean? im thinking of the hospital. i saw nothing ahead of me then. now i have goals. i found a lovely girl that adores me and im doing good.i just told myself that im gorgeous. i smiled because i believe it and im all yours. i wonder who will end up with me. will it be you? im thinking of the joker, at the end of the killing joke, when he pulls out the gun on bruce, he pulls the triiger, (you'd think it were loaded and bruce would fall0 but a fang just came out that said bang. and he said goddamn it, blanks. if i were in shoes i think if it were loaded i'd point it to myself. hey and you were right, my escape bag would like alot of them in it :x. it's 2:P40, the bell rang. have fun. i wish i could be someone, like a hero. have a nice car and have alot of cool toys, fly, be super strong, be able to move stuff with my mind. im just a normal boy tho, nothing more. well a partner i am. i feel like i am the last one to know. anything. it's fine though. im thinking of what clack said to van. i just looked to my left to see a picture of andy gibb. he was amazing, this is what it says...... " sometimes i'd say. Andy, look in the mirrior, you've got everything, good looks, talent, women love you, men liked him too. but when he looked in the mirror, you always had the feeling that he didnt see anything" he fell for this woman and he broke up with him and he did coke untill he died because it it. he's brothers made the song "dont throw it all away on love" for andy. tyler just called. i am im no mood to talk to many people. lost in thought. when she first died i went and i cryed, and cryed, i wish she could of answeredthe questions i asked from six feet below. im thinking of that night, i just put a hand over my necklace and close my eyes, held the hair pin and the charm tightly in my hand. give me strenth. sorry i cannot spell. look into m eyes> tell me what you see. i looked at the m on my hand, and thought of yours. we have the same mark no? or is that only in my mind too? kiss me? seperate my dream world from reality. two face, his coin..... he can not make a choice without it. in his interesting. i must try to shake these thoughts. help me, hold my hand, take them away from me. be close