Axel here,
Ace reporter.
My grade has adandon me.
I got to talk to her today, not too long but hell, could ask for more. She's having a blast. My ears rang today. That means someone said my name? Im singing the things you need the most. In my mind in trying to find that great part of me. The one that lives with his head in the clouds. Cloud..... I guess im alive huh? I cal feel my heartbeat. I like the green arrow. No one will ever be better than batman to me though. I guess sav is coming with me to the mall. Day with her I guess. Goddamn I miss you so fucking much :[ I wonder what he thinks of, does he think of he's girl? I bet it was hard on him. Yep getting into charater, starting to cry. I have goosebumbs. I feel so so, disconnected. Axel is outta survice.I call myself axel because I lost bryan. I've found and mened some pieces that I've found tho. I just looked over at my pittsburgh hat and I saw the city, like the memories. Lovely city. in my dream world I just got a ticket to nowhere and im laying on my bed on the train. I didn't pack much for the trip. Wonder where I'll end up. I like the places in my mind. I sound crazy now. Sorry, I bid you people farewell..... (tips hat and walks down a dark alley)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
wensday morning?? this week?
well i kinda knew but joey said that it was next week.
so no friday plans i guess. mall this friday i guess.
i must write in my journal then. can i keep it tho? just in case.
imma think of you tonsss, well gaby will be at school, one mckay but imma miss mine,
me kitty. well imma go make the batman puzzle. <3
well i kinda knew but joey said that it was next week.
so no friday plans i guess. mall this friday i guess.
i must write in my journal then. can i keep it tho? just in case.
imma think of you tonsss, well gaby will be at school, one mckay but imma miss mine,
me kitty. well imma go make the batman puzzle. <3
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Friday, April 25, 2008
imma really kicking myself in the ass for not being able to come, dad's is boring
i think imma cheek the oil and the quads and fill the tanks, idk. fuck. sorry kitten ;(
hey you guys....
106 already? i sorry that i couldnt go hiking today catalina.
hey do you remember thata list? you can add to it now. im singing along to lying awake, too bad people dont know about them. i know understand, when she said oh and he was like what do you mean "oh" and he broke down in front of her. i cried in front her her last night. i could use a dose right about now, sometimes i see her as an antibodie that helps me fight it off, but when i need an other does i cant have it. theres 40 panels of glass in the big window thing at my place. have you seen a better world? im thinking of question and bruce. how they can like find any answer. i need to get up on this. i must live in the moment. well imma watch more. the phone call woke me up but now im wide awake, dad is going to get my phone. think she... no more. over and out
106 already? i sorry that i couldnt go hiking today catalina.
hey do you remember thata list? you can add to it now. im singing along to lying awake, too bad people dont know about them. i know understand, when she said oh and he was like what do you mean "oh" and he broke down in front of her. i cried in front her her last night. i could use a dose right about now, sometimes i see her as an antibodie that helps me fight it off, but when i need an other does i cant have it. theres 40 panels of glass in the big window thing at my place. have you seen a better world? im thinking of question and bruce. how they can like find any answer. i need to get up on this. i must live in the moment. well imma watch more. the phone call woke me up but now im wide awake, dad is going to get my phone. think she... no more. over and out
Thursday, April 24, 2008
hello beloved readers,
i need like music 24/7 to not think.
well i need to come up with a new way, i cant be doing this all the time. i just cant. and yes babe i do believe it was two weeks. i wont even say it, im not, but i am? ah put a sock in where my words come from. well it's 10:13 and batman starts at 10:30 so i have sometime. im singing sliver bullet slowly, well you could bring john to hike no. reminds me of home, i loved that hike, so high up, we all slept up there, we could see new mexico from there i believe. the caves were amazing. your wrist is small ya know, mexico. ohhhhhhh saturday, Julio is fighting that day! i can still see ya tho, i might miss the fight but w/e. he's won all his fights. so he's facing this Hernandez dude. he's from italy. also zero loses. it'll be a hell of a fight. oh and oscar is fighting may 3rd =D they call jr the pride of meixco. imma proud as fuck to me mexican. yes even tho im orange. ah, my mind is clear. thank god. god..... i hated you, im sorry but i did. ya know it'll take more than cat to make it up to me. just kidding, she's more even enough. so are we even now? im just touching the surface. your like my cure, but sometimes i need more dosees to fight off what blinds me. and sometimes those doses cant be given to me. wonder what yout thinking of. honestly. well i need to go watch cnn people... hahahaha batman, well i do read all the cnn stuff. over and out
i need like music 24/7 to not think.
well i need to come up with a new way, i cant be doing this all the time. i just cant. and yes babe i do believe it was two weeks. i wont even say it, im not, but i am? ah put a sock in where my words come from. well it's 10:13 and batman starts at 10:30 so i have sometime. im singing sliver bullet slowly, well you could bring john to hike no. reminds me of home, i loved that hike, so high up, we all slept up there, we could see new mexico from there i believe. the caves were amazing. your wrist is small ya know, mexico. ohhhhhhh saturday, Julio is fighting that day! i can still see ya tho, i might miss the fight but w/e. he's won all his fights. so he's facing this Hernandez dude. he's from italy. also zero loses. it'll be a hell of a fight. oh and oscar is fighting may 3rd =D they call jr the pride of meixco. imma proud as fuck to me mexican. yes even tho im orange. ah, my mind is clear. thank god. god..... i hated you, im sorry but i did. ya know it'll take more than cat to make it up to me. just kidding, she's more even enough. so are we even now? im just touching the surface. your like my cure, but sometimes i need more dosees to fight off what blinds me. and sometimes those doses cant be given to me. wonder what yout thinking of. honestly. well i need to go watch cnn people... hahahaha batman, well i do read all the cnn stuff. over and out
Tonight you fall in love is what i needed.
dude shut the fuck up. i miss my speed, hearing it's roar,
shifting into next gear, giving it more. i like the way the wind presses agaist my chest. i like riding without my helment but then it gets all messy. idk w/e. i think jen comes here at normal time. im singing Theres No Sympathy For The Dead, i feel ike i can really scream and let thgings out to thing song. i wonder what she's up to, thinking of. now that reminds me of her, i wonder what her "last name" is. i wonder about the little one, he's small for his age. if i were to click my dc's together will i see my family? i want my hair longer. told the world how he felt with the sound of a gat. maybe they'd remember em then. i thought of that once, still do, for the epople who never knew, fame. they'd remember me.......
dude shut the fuck up. i miss my speed, hearing it's roar,
shifting into next gear, giving it more. i like the way the wind presses agaist my chest. i like riding without my helment but then it gets all messy. idk w/e. i think jen comes here at normal time. im singing Theres No Sympathy For The Dead, i feel ike i can really scream and let thgings out to thing song. i wonder what she's up to, thinking of. now that reminds me of her, i wonder what her "last name" is. i wonder about the little one, he's small for his age. if i were to click my dc's together will i see my family? i want my hair longer. told the world how he felt with the sound of a gat. maybe they'd remember em then. i thought of that once, still do, for the epople who never knew, fame. they'd remember me.......
Ello people,
this this bryan coming to you live
from the office of his place. breaking news from the
world of sports, pacman jones is going to dallas to play for the cowboys, and Shaun Alexander was cut from the seahawks. what gives people?? he was the leagues's mvp two years ago, honestly i always thought that bastard was overated. willy is always the leader in rushing yards, that rookie from minnesota only got it because willy had something wrong with his leg. hillary is winning? ohhhh i heard changes yesterday on the way to see jen, idk pac thought we'd never see a black president, and we're close, or were? idk. i dont care about that kinda stuff, just bring the troops back. hey emily you like the cheifs no? jared allen went to minnesota. idk, do you watch it? enough of that, lets see whats on my mind, pictures, new ones. yesterday, talking to you, the dualing clicks from jen's room. mustangs, my fear, future, speed, you, you, and did i saw you? im lame. mom is about to leave. i think your still sleeping. i couldnt sleep at all last night. not even a little. so yeah im tired but w/e. this week off has been more than i'd ever wanted. im thinking of how gaby owned me in tennis yesterday ;/ but imma get ya back gaby! still thinking of yesterday, never stoped thinking of it. well imma go on aim, wait. mother's tank just went up the hill. 9:24 is the time. over and out
this this bryan coming to you live
from the office of his place. breaking news from the
world of sports, pacman jones is going to dallas to play for the cowboys, and Shaun Alexander was cut from the seahawks. what gives people?? he was the leagues's mvp two years ago, honestly i always thought that bastard was overated. willy is always the leader in rushing yards, that rookie from minnesota only got it because willy had something wrong with his leg. hillary is winning? ohhhh i heard changes yesterday on the way to see jen, idk pac thought we'd never see a black president, and we're close, or were? idk. i dont care about that kinda stuff, just bring the troops back. hey emily you like the cheifs no? jared allen went to minnesota. idk, do you watch it? enough of that, lets see whats on my mind, pictures, new ones. yesterday, talking to you, the dualing clicks from jen's room. mustangs, my fear, future, speed, you, you, and did i saw you? im lame. mom is about to leave. i think your still sleeping. i couldnt sleep at all last night. not even a little. so yeah im tired but w/e. this week off has been more than i'd ever wanted. im thinking of how gaby owned me in tennis yesterday ;/ but imma get ya back gaby! still thinking of yesterday, never stoped thinking of it. well imma go on aim, wait. mother's tank just went up the hill. 9:24 is the time. over and out
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
wonder woman/real name is diana, diana is the roman goddess of the moon
she sometimes says hera, hera is her mother, hera is the queen of heaven, wife of zeus, goddess of women and marriage. and there home is made up only of woman. kinda adds up? on an episode i say yesterday hades said that he is wonder woman's father. and she helped hades take back his seat as ruler of the underworld. the demons were scared of hawkgirl because they saw her wings, thought she was an angel. ha i learned something from watching the justice league! =P im lamee
she sometimes says hera, hera is her mother, hera is the queen of heaven, wife of zeus, goddess of women and marriage. and there home is made up only of woman. kinda adds up? on an episode i say yesterday hades said that he is wonder woman's father. and she helped hades take back his seat as ruler of the underworld. the demons were scared of hawkgirl because they saw her wings, thought she was an angel. ha i learned something from watching the justice league! =P im lamee
i wouldnt take it back,
im watching the justice league.
no one is "home" right now, at the moement.
im listening to untill the day i die. im thinking of
flying. she was focused. she knew i would walk behind. no?
if you knew then you know me well little one. i can taste blood,
nose bleed ;/. too bad she's busy today, i think i'll just stay here, sing. blog. lets pull a thought and run on it, "when i say jump, you say how high" well i cant really run on that, it speeks for itself. i cant do this anymore, but sometimes i cant help it, i feel like a hand has been placed over my mouth and my voice box torn from my troat. i think it's my body telling me to be careful of the words i chose, my english is well but i get nervous and i studder, i'd say a word that comes two words after the one i just said. im thinking of how confused i was, she knew spanish but she spoke english instead, was she ashamed of it? i dont understand why, well there are just somethings that dont have answers, things that you would have never seen coming. they just happen. you just cant read some people. i feel like someone could read me well but take a look deeper and they might get hurt so i close my eyes. getting hurt is a part of life, like thomas wayne told little bruce, "do you know why we fall hruce? so we can learn how to pick ourselfs up" gaby and i get along well huh? random but i just put together the cards to form the big picture and it reminds me of when i looked through the deck to find the pieces for her. i'll finish this later
im watching the justice league.
no one is "home" right now, at the moement.
im listening to untill the day i die. im thinking of
flying. she was focused. she knew i would walk behind. no?
if you knew then you know me well little one. i can taste blood,
nose bleed ;/. too bad she's busy today, i think i'll just stay here, sing. blog. lets pull a thought and run on it, "when i say jump, you say how high" well i cant really run on that, it speeks for itself. i cant do this anymore, but sometimes i cant help it, i feel like a hand has been placed over my mouth and my voice box torn from my troat. i think it's my body telling me to be careful of the words i chose, my english is well but i get nervous and i studder, i'd say a word that comes two words after the one i just said. im thinking of how confused i was, she knew spanish but she spoke english instead, was she ashamed of it? i dont understand why, well there are just somethings that dont have answers, things that you would have never seen coming. they just happen. you just cant read some people. i feel like someone could read me well but take a look deeper and they might get hurt so i close my eyes. getting hurt is a part of life, like thomas wayne told little bruce, "do you know why we fall hruce? so we can learn how to pick ourselfs up" gaby and i get along well huh? random but i just put together the cards to form the big picture and it reminds me of when i looked through the deck to find the pieces for her. i'll finish this later
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
hello by beloved readers,
how are you people? imma fine thanks for asking =)
ahah in bored and lame. i wonder what she's up to, having loads of fun, yeah.
well joey's wasnt fun. im aim and no one that i talk to is on, thank you guys.
the dude across the street has it good, a hot rod, two sweet corvettes, he even has a z06, black. anywho, nice place, three sweet cars even tho imma ford kinda guy..... he has his own bueiness. i so didnt spell that right but w/e. wonder if she thought of me once? maybe? just a little? naw. well yes. i think. anywhooo umm lets see whats on my mind, when gaby and i watched the justice league, and well yeah and comics, the mall gang, roy, and cita,rita, and everyone else. home, speed, dreams, superman, and well tons of yesterday but yep. im playing with a lock i found. ah i dont know what to say people. peace
how are you people? imma fine thanks for asking =)
ahah in bored and lame. i wonder what she's up to, having loads of fun, yeah.
well joey's wasnt fun. im aim and no one that i talk to is on, thank you guys.
the dude across the street has it good, a hot rod, two sweet corvettes, he even has a z06, black. anywho, nice place, three sweet cars even tho imma ford kinda guy..... he has his own bueiness. i so didnt spell that right but w/e. wonder if she thought of me once? maybe? just a little? naw. well yes. i think. anywhooo umm lets see whats on my mind, when gaby and i watched the justice league, and well yeah and comics, the mall gang, roy, and cita,rita, and everyone else. home, speed, dreams, superman, and well tons of yesterday but yep. im playing with a lock i found. ah i dont know what to say people. peace
Yet an other new day,
i wonder if she was covered up last night,
i wasnt. i was freezeeinggggg. still thinking of yesterday, never stop thuinking of it. i wonder what fatjer and i are gonna do. i just looked other to my mexico braclet =, proud. it's 9:23. ha the number 23, i think mom should watch it alone to get more out of it. and imma remember gaby, the killing joke and the ball. fuck i forgott he cape. imma callin joe right now. i miss lia, think i'll see her again sometime? hmmmmm, lets see whats on my mind, hmmm my mind is like a maze, a trap, if you get in and open t he wrong door, take a wrong step you wont have a nice day. anywhoo, but if you know what to do in it you cam find me. sorry you guys my thoughts are wayyy too choppyy. over and out
i wonder if she was covered up last night,
i wasnt. i was freezeeinggggg. still thinking of yesterday, never stop thuinking of it. i wonder what fatjer and i are gonna do. i just looked other to my mexico braclet =, proud. it's 9:23. ha the number 23, i think mom should watch it alone to get more out of it. and imma remember gaby, the killing joke and the ball. fuck i forgott he cape. imma callin joe right now. i miss lia, think i'll see her again sometime? hmmmmm, lets see whats on my mind, hmmm my mind is like a maze, a trap, if you get in and open t he wrong door, take a wrong step you wont have a nice day. anywhoo, but if you know what to do in it you cam find me. sorry you guys my thoughts are wayyy too choppyy. over and out
Monday, April 21, 2008
Dear blog,
today was wonderful,
there been a full moon for like the past four days, strange no?
i just put on make up, it's running, trying to get into charater, dont ask.
i cant stop thinkning of today, all of it. ha gaby and i were neck to neck in wii tennis, when ya left we watched the justice league. i burned the top of my mouth =( it hurts real bad. i wonder what your thinking of. have fun tomorrow cat. tomorrow i go with dad. i miss my speed, it didnt even rain. im thinking of gotham. well only a little. the rest is of tonight. well im gonna get some rest. <3
today was wonderful,
there been a full moon for like the past four days, strange no?
i just put on make up, it's running, trying to get into charater, dont ask.
i cant stop thinkning of today, all of it. ha gaby and i were neck to neck in wii tennis, when ya left we watched the justice league. i burned the top of my mouth =( it hurts real bad. i wonder what your thinking of. have fun tomorrow cat. tomorrow i go with dad. i miss my speed, it didnt even rain. im thinking of gotham. well only a little. the rest is of tonight. well im gonna get some rest. <3
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
it's 1:09.
lets see whats on my mind,
hush is. im thinking of when bruce said that we loved jason
that he would have done anything to save him. i'd be crushed if i were put in bruces shoes and had to fight "jason" i'd be afriad to hit him, but i'd also be pissed. how dare he take jason's body. im listening to the rain song. im also thinking of tonight well yesterday night. ha imma smart ass :p. this one part. i wonder what was yoyur favorite part of the night. im going to get up soon. so tommorw imma be there a while, i guess brad and emily have to leave sooner or they will be coming later? idk. i spaced out in the car. well i was thinking, your hair was smooth. i love you. still thinking of tonight. you? now im listening to where'd you go. it is hard, to be away from you is hard on me. i'll try to stick around for the longest time. ha i'll be the last one standing. ah my thought are all chopy. ha even that was chopy.sorry baby i just sneezed. tell me tomorrow? its alomost two now, i spent a while listening to music. over and out <3
lets see whats on my mind,
hush is. im thinking of when bruce said that we loved jason
that he would have done anything to save him. i'd be crushed if i were put in bruces shoes and had to fight "jason" i'd be afriad to hit him, but i'd also be pissed. how dare he take jason's body. im listening to the rain song. im also thinking of tonight well yesterday night. ha imma smart ass :p. this one part. i wonder what was yoyur favorite part of the night. im going to get up soon. so tommorw imma be there a while, i guess brad and emily have to leave sooner or they will be coming later? idk. i spaced out in the car. well i was thinking, your hair was smooth. i love you. still thinking of tonight. you? now im listening to where'd you go. it is hard, to be away from you is hard on me. i'll try to stick around for the longest time. ha i'll be the last one standing. ah my thought are all chopy. ha even that was chopy.sorry baby i just sneezed. tell me tomorrow? its alomost two now, i spent a while listening to music. over and out <3
i saw and idk i walked face first into the locker room door.
amy says not to worry at all, i'll try amy. promise. mt arms are a wee bit sore from
lifting. i like it tho. lets see whats on my mind, well tonight is the movies, i hope i found lose myself. keep me in reality please, dont let me think, keep me on my toes. i was gonna give you what i wrote but if you noticed a left in first. give john a hug for me. dyllan, he dosent seem like a friend anymore. who does? i feel like ive begun to push people away. i must not tho. the yheart will go away and come back next winter. i just spazed a little because my mexico braclet wasnt there. i think i can wear the other on my ankle if i wanted. i wonder if she missed me, a little? well she has friends to kepp her smile on. last year i justed this alot? now i dont? hey lizzy do still use this? read this? lynn is in china, she comes back tomorrow. this summer i wAnt to before stronger, slimer. i like make up, i think imma put some on today, well tonight. you dont like it? day, i like it when its darker, i can already feel that i wont be getting much sleep, for the week. i want to see the sunrise. ha i just pictured myself like all muscle and tough (bodywise) and still being soft inside. that a good combo? that reminds me i was gonna leave you a note that said i left, and goodbye but i forgot your combo, plus mr. joe opened my locker for me so he'd be like why you wanna go down those halls? lets see if you can take a hint. that reminds me of when one time i got use to you waiting after gym and i went there, walked with my head down and when i looked up you werent there, i stood there for a while, i like like so late to class. i guess you walked with john. i look for him in the halls now because your always there. no. i wont cry. in 20 the 7th period bell will ring. today was mr.g's last day. i wish i could have stayed to see the movie in la. my heart was beating so fast, it was different, then it slowed down so much, thats why i like went home really. gotham, the city that lays within my dreams. i like it when i dream. it's like watching a batman episode. is it childish to still watch the jl and batman? but im a kid? well not so much? but i can do alot.if my memorie serves me well when lia and i were watching the band i looked over to mom and she has like looks all tat time and she was smiling. im trying to burn time untill you go on aim. still need a ride? lets go deeper into my mind, i can see that part of me, he's bouncing off the walls saying cat. now i just pictured all t he different parts of me in cells, in arkham. batman, bruce wayne. turn of the heat please. ha, that reminds me of him, yesterday. im thinking of the movie 23. with jim carrey. i can see a bright future ahead of me, even if you wetre to leave i'd have to mend my heart, it'll take a long while but i must push forward. i must think of a possible future, where maybe i can have a family, give them all they want. im thinking of when i kissed gaby and told her to give that kiss to you. 10 more and your out. but you like get home at 3:16ish? do i sound creepy? forgive me. its really warm outside. i miss el paso, mexico, its so hot you can like see the heat? or at least y ou see something in the air. you can hear the snake sound too. do you know what i mean? im thinking of the hospital. i saw nothing ahead of me then. now i have goals. i found a lovely girl that adores me and im doing good.i just told myself that im gorgeous. i smiled because i believe it and im all yours. i wonder who will end up with me. will it be you? im thinking of the joker, at the end of the killing joke, when he pulls out the gun on bruce, he pulls the triiger, (you'd think it were loaded and bruce would fall0 but a fang just came out that said bang. and he said goddamn it, blanks. if i were in shoes i think if it were loaded i'd point it to myself. hey and you were right, my escape bag would like alot of them in it :x. it's 2:P40, the bell rang. have fun. i wish i could be someone, like a hero. have a nice car and have alot of cool toys, fly, be super strong, be able to move stuff with my mind. im just a normal boy tho, nothing more. well a partner i am. i feel like i am the last one to know. anything. it's fine though. im thinking of what clack said to van. i just looked to my left to see a picture of andy gibb. he was amazing, this is what it says...... " sometimes i'd say. Andy, look in the mirrior, you've got everything, good looks, talent, women love you, men liked him too. but when he looked in the mirror, you always had the feeling that he didnt see anything" he fell for this woman and he broke up with him and he did coke untill he died because it it. he's brothers made the song "dont throw it all away on love" for andy. tyler just called. i am im no mood to talk to many people. lost in thought. when she first died i went and i cryed, and cryed, i wish she could of answeredthe questions i asked from six feet below. im thinking of that night, i just put a hand over my necklace and close my eyes, held the hair pin and the charm tightly in my hand. give me strenth. sorry i cannot spell. look into m eyes> tell me what you see. i looked at the m on my hand, and thought of yours. we have the same mark no? or is that only in my mind too? kiss me? seperate my dream world from reality. two face, his coin..... he can not make a choice without it. in his interesting. i must try to shake these thoughts. help me, hold my hand, take them away from me. be close
amy says not to worry at all, i'll try amy. promise. mt arms are a wee bit sore from
lifting. i like it tho. lets see whats on my mind, well tonight is the movies, i hope i found lose myself. keep me in reality please, dont let me think, keep me on my toes. i was gonna give you what i wrote but if you noticed a left in first. give john a hug for me. dyllan, he dosent seem like a friend anymore. who does? i feel like ive begun to push people away. i must not tho. the yheart will go away and come back next winter. i just spazed a little because my mexico braclet wasnt there. i think i can wear the other on my ankle if i wanted. i wonder if she missed me, a little? well she has friends to kepp her smile on. last year i justed this alot? now i dont? hey lizzy do still use this? read this? lynn is in china, she comes back tomorrow. this summer i wAnt to before stronger, slimer. i like make up, i think imma put some on today, well tonight. you dont like it? day, i like it when its darker, i can already feel that i wont be getting much sleep, for the week. i want to see the sunrise. ha i just pictured myself like all muscle and tough (bodywise) and still being soft inside. that a good combo? that reminds me i was gonna leave you a note that said i left, and goodbye but i forgot your combo, plus mr. joe opened my locker for me so he'd be like why you wanna go down those halls? lets see if you can take a hint. that reminds me of when one time i got use to you waiting after gym and i went there, walked with my head down and when i looked up you werent there, i stood there for a while, i like like so late to class. i guess you walked with john. i look for him in the halls now because your always there. no. i wont cry. in 20 the 7th period bell will ring. today was mr.g's last day. i wish i could have stayed to see the movie in la. my heart was beating so fast, it was different, then it slowed down so much, thats why i like went home really. gotham, the city that lays within my dreams. i like it when i dream. it's like watching a batman episode. is it childish to still watch the jl and batman? but im a kid? well not so much? but i can do alot.if my memorie serves me well when lia and i were watching the band i looked over to mom and she has like looks all tat time and she was smiling. im trying to burn time untill you go on aim. still need a ride? lets go deeper into my mind, i can see that part of me, he's bouncing off the walls saying cat. now i just pictured all t he different parts of me in cells, in arkham. batman, bruce wayne. turn of the heat please. ha, that reminds me of him, yesterday. im thinking of the movie 23. with jim carrey. i can see a bright future ahead of me, even if you wetre to leave i'd have to mend my heart, it'll take a long while but i must push forward. i must think of a possible future, where maybe i can have a family, give them all they want. im thinking of when i kissed gaby and told her to give that kiss to you. 10 more and your out. but you like get home at 3:16ish? do i sound creepy? forgive me. its really warm outside. i miss el paso, mexico, its so hot you can like see the heat? or at least y ou see something in the air. you can hear the snake sound too. do you know what i mean? im thinking of the hospital. i saw nothing ahead of me then. now i have goals. i found a lovely girl that adores me and im doing good.i just told myself that im gorgeous. i smiled because i believe it and im all yours. i wonder who will end up with me. will it be you? im thinking of the joker, at the end of the killing joke, when he pulls out the gun on bruce, he pulls the triiger, (you'd think it were loaded and bruce would fall0 but a fang just came out that said bang. and he said goddamn it, blanks. if i were in shoes i think if it were loaded i'd point it to myself. hey and you were right, my escape bag would like alot of them in it :x. it's 2:P40, the bell rang. have fun. i wish i could be someone, like a hero. have a nice car and have alot of cool toys, fly, be super strong, be able to move stuff with my mind. im just a normal boy tho, nothing more. well a partner i am. i feel like i am the last one to know. anything. it's fine though. im thinking of what clack said to van. i just looked to my left to see a picture of andy gibb. he was amazing, this is what it says...... " sometimes i'd say. Andy, look in the mirrior, you've got everything, good looks, talent, women love you, men liked him too. but when he looked in the mirror, you always had the feeling that he didnt see anything" he fell for this woman and he broke up with him and he did coke untill he died because it it. he's brothers made the song "dont throw it all away on love" for andy. tyler just called. i am im no mood to talk to many people. lost in thought. when she first died i went and i cryed, and cryed, i wish she could of answeredthe questions i asked from six feet below. im thinking of that night, i just put a hand over my necklace and close my eyes, held the hair pin and the charm tightly in my hand. give me strenth. sorry i cannot spell. look into m eyes> tell me what you see. i looked at the m on my hand, and thought of yours. we have the same mark no? or is that only in my mind too? kiss me? seperate my dream world from reality. two face, his coin..... he can not make a choice without it. in his interesting. i must try to shake these thoughts. help me, hold my hand, take them away from me. be close
think she noticed i left?
sorry kitten, i pushed myself too hard at onvce and i went home.
mr.dunn said "you look good, been lifting weights? you look good" =) at least someone notices ;D still up for it? cant wait <3 see you later
mr.dunn said "you look good, been lifting weights? you look good" =) at least someone notices ;D still up for it? cant wait <3 see you later
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Not many people use this anymore huh?
the blog, i wonder if she still reads this. well lets see
how today was/is. the school day went by fast and also slow, imma cry?
what gives? kay..... give me a sec people, kay tears gone. i put tape over my mouth and even when i had to take it off i felt like i was still silenced. its now sun down/ your taking care of the kids for an other two hours. i didnt see too much of you today, when ty and i sat drinking ice tea i thought of the end of the day, how blank it was? and tyler said i was staring into space. the science test was too easy. today i came come to a car, it was only but three inches away. im thinking of the train tracks. of when you layed on the rock and had your feet up, were you looking at the water? thinkning? im thinkning of lia, she even thought i was pretty with that huge mountain on my face huh? mom was like thats all your gonna eat? yup it was, when your around i like cant eat because im not hungrey. im tired, i wish i could lead on you. i just looked down on my mexico braclet, i wonder what there doing, i bet there busy because its only 5:20 there. if you could go anywhere where would it be? now i feel like a monster, this must be how edward scissors hands must have felt. that movie was so sad, he wanted to touch the girl but he cut her face but he didnt mean it, and that guy tired to kill him for it. it has alot of scars on his face huh? im thinkning of um i wanna say monday, when all of us came over. you looked amazing. i dont want to say more, i wish i could have a hug
the blog, i wonder if she still reads this. well lets see
how today was/is. the school day went by fast and also slow, imma cry?
what gives? kay..... give me a sec people, kay tears gone. i put tape over my mouth and even when i had to take it off i felt like i was still silenced. its now sun down/ your taking care of the kids for an other two hours. i didnt see too much of you today, when ty and i sat drinking ice tea i thought of the end of the day, how blank it was? and tyler said i was staring into space. the science test was too easy. today i came come to a car, it was only but three inches away. im thinking of the train tracks. of when you layed on the rock and had your feet up, were you looking at the water? thinkning? im thinkning of lia, she even thought i was pretty with that huge mountain on my face huh? mom was like thats all your gonna eat? yup it was, when your around i like cant eat because im not hungrey. im tired, i wish i could lead on you. i just looked down on my mexico braclet, i wonder what there doing, i bet there busy because its only 5:20 there. if you could go anywhere where would it be? now i feel like a monster, this must be how edward scissors hands must have felt. that movie was so sad, he wanted to touch the girl but he cut her face but he didnt mean it, and that guy tired to kill him for it. it has alot of scars on his face huh? im thinkning of um i wanna say monday, when all of us came over. you looked amazing. i dont want to say more, i wish i could have a hug
well i didnt get a proper goodbye it its fine,
di gaby give you what i told her to give you? and DON'T kill the messanger,
because i wont be there to break you two up. well i love you tons baby, now imma work on mt La project, watch/ listen to this . i wouldnt give my son to fight someone elses war, i would hate to lose my child. anywho, here you go.
di gaby give you what i told her to give you? and DON'T kill the messanger,
because i wont be there to break you two up. well i love you tons baby, now imma work on mt La project, watch/ listen to this . i wouldnt give my son to fight someone elses war, i would hate to lose my child. anywho, here you go.
Monday, April 14, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Cloudy day, im cold.
i guess you guys did barts again
yesterday. there was more people that time huh?
wait a sec, i have to put my mexico braclet on.
i use to not be able to put it on bt myself but now i can do it fast.
im thinking of when the little one wore my necklace, and when he drew me with like half a face. i can still like feel like my handle bars in my hands. i can see all my scars. mlc has no school this week. i dont care really, i like school now, i hope we read the play and not have to read by ourselfs.im listening to pretending. 13/4/8 no? i hope you had fun yesterday. i wonder what roy is up to right this second. it's 8:48 there, two hours behind. i think he's getting things to eat. i always tagged along. im thinking of gavi, if we go with her everything is faster. she's my cusin, she's a model, its crazyyy huh many guys give her their number, they throw themselfs in front of her. i miss her tons, i miss my family. i miss you8. i think well imma make a guess. emily slept over and you two are sleeping. well imma sing my way into a better mood, over and out
i guess you guys did barts again
yesterday. there was more people that time huh?
wait a sec, i have to put my mexico braclet on.
i use to not be able to put it on bt myself but now i can do it fast.
im thinking of when the little one wore my necklace, and when he drew me with like half a face. i can still like feel like my handle bars in my hands. i can see all my scars. mlc has no school this week. i dont care really, i like school now, i hope we read the play and not have to read by ourselfs.im listening to pretending. 13/4/8 no? i hope you had fun yesterday. i wonder what roy is up to right this second. it's 8:48 there, two hours behind. i think he's getting things to eat. i always tagged along. im thinking of gavi, if we go with her everything is faster. she's my cusin, she's a model, its crazyyy huh many guys give her their number, they throw themselfs in front of her. i miss her tons, i miss my family. i miss you8. i think well imma make a guess. emily slept over and you two are sleeping. well imma sing my way into a better mood, over and out
Saturday, April 12, 2008
i kneww you were theree!
i was just thinking too too much of you,
today i went to my aunt and uncle's house to ride,
a thorn bush got my arm goodd, i think jen fractured her wrist. well besides the few cuts riding was fun. i met these few kids names bret and ricky. i got mud alll over myself. im thinking of how great today and yesterday was, mostly yesterday tho. im thinking of when the little girl said that she loved your dad and of what dad said the boy drew. im thinking of those steps with mom's work on it. mom is different, artisic, and idk she seems really cool. i would hate to get on their bad side tho. that made me think of when you opened the door for me and i said that's my job. and when i told gaby :make this the last time you buy when a guy is around, i dont want you to spend your money when im there, my treat. so dont worry little one. this week started off slow but it turn out great. i love you, you know that? sure i wasnt too, umm, idk, me? mrs. b sent a letter and i got it, i feel good about myself. i'd never trade my life, not for anything. i hope your having fun at the show tonight. im missing you tho, imtired, my hands are like red from my headle bars, i didnt wear a single thing of my stuff, i should have cause i'd be fine if i did. i wonder if my family thinks of me, hey thank you for pulling me, when i was just about to hit my head on that metal thing. your so god damn beautiful baby, its amazing. all mine too huh? yeah =) im so happy, imma even smiling and this time im not hiding it. <3 you always. bryan <3
i was just thinking too too much of you,
today i went to my aunt and uncle's house to ride,
a thorn bush got my arm goodd, i think jen fractured her wrist. well besides the few cuts riding was fun. i met these few kids names bret and ricky. i got mud alll over myself. im thinking of how great today and yesterday was, mostly yesterday tho. im thinking of when the little girl said that she loved your dad and of what dad said the boy drew. im thinking of those steps with mom's work on it. mom is different, artisic, and idk she seems really cool. i would hate to get on their bad side tho. that made me think of when you opened the door for me and i said that's my job. and when i told gaby :make this the last time you buy when a guy is around, i dont want you to spend your money when im there, my treat. so dont worry little one. this week started off slow but it turn out great. i love you, you know that? sure i wasnt too, umm, idk, me? mrs. b sent a letter and i got it, i feel good about myself. i'd never trade my life, not for anything. i hope your having fun at the show tonight. im missing you tho, imtired, my hands are like red from my headle bars, i didnt wear a single thing of my stuff, i should have cause i'd be fine if i did. i wonder if my family thinks of me, hey thank you for pulling me, when i was just about to hit my head on that metal thing. your so god damn beautiful baby, its amazing. all mine too huh? yeah =) im so happy, imma even smiling and this time im not hiding it. <3 you always. bryan <3
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Saturday, April 5, 2008
sleep over huh kitten?
ahhhhhhh i cant stop thinking of
her, all the wonders. besides my cousin im
thinking of you, mom's art, gaby, hawk girl and gl.
i liked how flash was like well i trust you guys and all but ya know the whole secert identity thing and bruce says everyone's true names and there all like whoa. and wonder woman liked flash's red hair. i can never sleep when i sleep over people's houses? at your house tho i was beat and could have fallen like a rock right there on the couch. they made a movie to doomsdayyy?!?! me gotta see it. my lap wasnt warm when you went away, this might sound odd but i smell like you still, i love it, i can see you up playing with our necklace when everyone else around you is sleeping. ive been playing with your hair clip. well imma watch a few more episodes of the justice league online and then superman, batman, the justice league and then the batman. imma lloser huh? when jen sees me wayching em she goes "remind me how old you are bryan" dont cry bryan, imma tryin real hard not to :( sleep well baby, did you bring your gir blankie? do you need me to tuck you in and kiss you goodnight? gee i hope your warm and confy. sorry people i cant spell but if you read my blog you should be like yeah yeahh tell us something we dont know mister. =) get back t me little one? pretty please for me? i like the way my voice songs so imma singing, ohio is for lovers, when im alone i scream casey's parts. well before i write my life story i bid you farewell *tips hat* <3
ahhhhhhh i cant stop thinking of
her, all the wonders. besides my cousin im
thinking of you, mom's art, gaby, hawk girl and gl.
i liked how flash was like well i trust you guys and all but ya know the whole secert identity thing and bruce says everyone's true names and there all like whoa. and wonder woman liked flash's red hair. i can never sleep when i sleep over people's houses? at your house tho i was beat and could have fallen like a rock right there on the couch. they made a movie to doomsdayyy?!?! me gotta see it. my lap wasnt warm when you went away, this might sound odd but i smell like you still, i love it, i can see you up playing with our necklace when everyone else around you is sleeping. ive been playing with your hair clip. well imma watch a few more episodes of the justice league online and then superman, batman, the justice league and then the batman. imma lloser huh? when jen sees me wayching em she goes "remind me how old you are bryan" dont cry bryan, imma tryin real hard not to :( sleep well baby, did you bring your gir blankie? do you need me to tuck you in and kiss you goodnight? gee i hope your warm and confy. sorry people i cant spell but if you read my blog you should be like yeah yeahh tell us something we dont know mister. =) get back t me little one? pretty please for me? i like the way my voice songs so imma singing, ohio is for lovers, when im alone i scream casey's parts. well before i write my life story i bid you farewell *tips hat* <3
i wonder what's her name,
i wonder where she is. i wonder if she was
taken a hint, i wonder if someday she'll look for him.
learn the true half of her family, she's a salazar, i hope she finds us one day.
or i'll find her, all by myself. , dad said that from the only picture he saw of her that she is beautiful. the last sentence cat? who would pop you? i wish i could be close to you now, i love you dear, i do <3
i wonder where she is. i wonder if she was
taken a hint, i wonder if someday she'll look for him.
learn the true half of her family, she's a salazar, i hope she finds us one day.
or i'll find her, all by myself. , dad said that from the only picture he saw of her that she is beautiful. the last sentence cat? who would pop you? i wish i could be close to you now, i love you dear, i do <3
Thursday, April 3, 2008
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